Venting Going to be dead in less than 24 hours at this rate; do I get decapitated by laying on the tracks, or is it better to walk and get hit?

[WolfyPop487]

I hate my life. Everyone is my enemy; I can't keep on top on people trying to put me down. My family are pestering me to take my anti-depressants, but they are an insurmountable distance away (thrown across the room and down the side of my desk).

I make one mistake and everyone tries punishing me for it. Everyone else does far worse and ends up just fine.

Just have to get some logistics out of the way like cancelling my psychiatrist appointment tomorrow (I know it's funny). I never feel wanted, and, now, the world gets interest for making me the bank of pain and suffering, albeit a regional one (others have it worse; they can ctb if they want, so, I don't care).

I hate this world. I'm glad I never actually produced any economic value. To be honest, I'd rather leave the world a worse place, but I don't have the resources to fulfil that desire. Could gore and viscera spread down the train and traumatise everyone going to work? Maybe, but it won't be enough.

 

[xXSufferingXx]

not sure what you mean towards the last part there.
just focus on achieving your own peace (if that's what you got your mind set on), and don't try to make things bad for others.

 

[WolfyPop487]

not sure what you mean towards the last part there.
just focus on achieving your own peace (if that's what you got your mind set on), and don't try to make things bad for others.

I don't plan on hurting anyone, I'm sorry. I was really mad when I wrote this. People just constantly hurt me.

ok. thats got nothing to do with the random strangers on the train tho

Unfortunately, suicide via rail is the only way I have available on short notice. They also do have something to do with it. It's a fact of my life that people are exploitative and want to hurt me. You can't convince me that there isn't something going on when things have been like this so long and so consistently. I spend a lot of energy just making sure people don't hurt me.

 

[moon2bright]

Tell your psychiatrist you're cured.

 

[WolfyPop487]

Tell your psychiatrist you're cured.

YES!!

 

[darksouls]

peace be with you

 

[ZwartHartje]

No one actually answered this question: I think laying your neck down on the rail to get decapitated is a far safer bet than to walk and get hit! In the latter case you could end up just losing limbs and survive, which would be a nightmare!

Also, I understand your feelings but I think your wording is a bit off: you probably meant humanity and not "the world" - that's a very big difference!
I love the world, but I hate humanity. I'd wish to leave this world a better place - by liberating it from humanity!
Nature is beautiful, the Earth once was beautiful before humans destroyed it and made it into a prison planet.

 

[WolfyPop487]

I understand your feelings but I think your wording is a bit off: you probably meant humanity and not "the world" - that's a very big difference!
I love the world, but I hate humanity. I'd wish to leave this world a better place - by liberating it from humanity!

True actually. Sadly, I think the world is doomed anyway with all the damage humans have done.