Giving myself 10 days

[justpassingbeaner]

Hello Reader

I finally decided to plan a day to ctb.
I could write my sop story but to keep it brief, I am sick of the clown world I have to wake up to every morning.
If death waits for us all then I choose to embrace it with open arms.

With that being said, I have been leaning towards doing half suspension. I am pretty physically defected so I constantly faint, I have also done the choking game a few times so I'm assuming the general process is similar.
What is the best rope? (Amazon Link?)
Are there anything specific things I need to know? (So I don't turn into a vegetable)

I am a huge stoner and do not ever mind trying new substances.
Is there a substance that can do the hard part for me?

I am aiming for the 4th of Feb.
If you have answers or questions please let me know :)
Thanks for reading my post.

 

[Saponification]

GL. Any particular reason for the date?

 

[rotting]

Hello Reader

I finally decided to plan a day to ctb.
I could write my sop story but to keep it brief, I am sick of the clown world I have to wake up to every morning.
If death waits for us all then I choose to embrace it with open arms.

With that being said, I have been leaning towards doing half suspension. I am pretty physically defected so I constantly faint, I have also done the choking game a few times so I'm assuming the general process is similar.
What is the best rope? (Amazon Link?)
Are there anything specific things I need to know? (So I don't turn into a vegetable)

I am a huge stoner and do not ever mind trying new substances.
Is there a substance that can do the hard part for me?

I am aiming for the 4th of Feb.
If you have answers or questions please let me know :)
Thanks for reading my post.

Well, everything i can say is that I deal with the SI the same way as you, so i don't say anythinghere with disrespect.

I always keep pushing the "final date" further. Like, if in 10 days i don't get better, I'll kms, or if this meds end I won't buy anymore so I can die.

Being optimistic here, if you want to do something, give it a try, and then delay wour death.
My psychiatrist told me it's a good way to cope with the SI. Because if you are now pushing away the day you'll ctb, means that (slowly) maybe you can give yourself more time after this 10 days. If you like to study you can make another purpose (even if it's temporary, like finishing a degree idk, or visiting a place you really wanna travel to).
But starts with simple things, and maybe someday you'll find some plan for the long term.

Even if you do this and still decide to ctb (what i do understand), at least you made something nice that you wanted.

Sending hope. Stay safe!