Discussion Getting Unbelievably Desperate

[britter]

I've been trying for over a year now to find a method that is 1. accessible and 2. painless.

It makes me so jealous seeing other people receive products that are seemingly unobtainable for me right now, case and point SN.
Thanks to my awesome country (Australia) there is pretty much no way I can find to get my hands on the right amount and the right purity for me to finally depart the station.
I've been looking into methods such as partial hanging, but what I've read doesn't fill me with much confidence that it'll be a first try cinch.
I'm so so so so so tired of this shit and I really want to go but anything that isn't peaceful will not do.

I want to be able to watch the sun set and never wake up, I don't want the last thing I see to be the ground approaching me at terminal velocity or the front of a train.
I want my death to be a mystery, I don't want to be found.
I'm sure there's some crazy chemical combination no one has thought of that will drop you in an instant, I'm sure there's methods such as the DDMPAh mix and the sorts but it's always one or two ingredients that are just a smidge out of reach. It's driving me crazy.

Is anyone else experiencing this? What is the next step? What do I do?

 

[[HNO]]

consider carbon monoxide.
i'd lit coals in a closed space and inhale funny fumes until drop dead. i've researched a lot of suicide methods and in my situation this is most optimal option, though access to SN isn't restricted in my country

 

[Someone123]

I've been trying for over a year now to find a method that is 1. accessible and 2. painless.

It makes me so jealous seeing other people receive products that are seemingly unobtainable for me right now, case and point SN.
Thanks to my awesome country (Australia) there is pretty much no way I can find to get my hands on the right amount and the right purity for me to finally depart the station.
I've been looking into methods such as partial hanging, but what I've read doesn't fill me with much confidence that it'll be a first try cinch.
I'm so so so so so tired of this shit and I really want to go but anything that isn't peaceful will not do.

I want to be able to watch the sun set and never wake up, I don't want the last thing I see to be the ground approaching me at terminal velocity or the front of a train.
I want my death to be a mystery, I don't want to be found.
I'm sure there's some crazy chemical combination no one has thought of that will drop you in an instant, I'm sure there's methods such as the DDMPAh mix and the sorts but it's always one or two ingredients that are just a smidge out of reach. It's driving me crazy.

Is anyone else experiencing this? What is the next step? What do I do?

Many people here are struggling with methods, many involve pain, many involve risk of harming oneself without ctb(train is especially bad for this), and more peaceful methods are usually somehwta complicated. This is a big challenge for the majority of people here. In the u.s. only 1 in 23 attempts works, and I suspect this is similar elsewhere- this is due to many people using very low percentage methods like cuttrng, pills, or partial. WHat you are facinf is what so many of us are facing. :)

consider carbon monoxide.
i'd lit coals in a closed space and inhale funny fumes until drop dead. i've researched a lot of suicide methods and in my situation this is most optimal option, though access to SN isn't restricted in my country

With charcoal you can't light themn indoors or it will fail- there are many details of the method on other threads.

 

[[HNO]]

With charcoal you can't light themn indoors or it will fail- there are many details of the method on other threads.

i don't think that lighting coals indoor is entirely impossible. there's cases of death by charcoals in hotels where opportunity to light coals outdoors and bring them inside is absent

Charcoal Fumes Blamed in Motel Death

A 48-year-old man apparently died of carbon monoxide poisoning after he lit a fire of charcoal briquettes next to his bed in a motel room to keep warm late Tuesday.

www.latimes.com

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I understand this. I despise life and view it as being a useless and terrible concept, and of course staying alive is only ever prolonging suffering, but yet the difficulty of suicide keeps me here. It's just so horrifying how we are denied peaceful ways to be free from a life that we never asked for, it's so terrifying how methods can fail and I hate how complicated planning to leave is. Your feelings of wanting a peaceful death are understandable, I do find it hard to believe how in this world many people view suicide as being worse than suffering. I hope that you find the freedom that you are looking for.