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WallTermite

WallTermite

Student
Aug 16, 2025
115
I'm 26, but all of a sudden some days ago, getting old has become my new fear.

Yes, if I get old, I'm closer to ctb, but I as I also start feeling like things aren't worth doing anymore since I have wasted so many years of my prime. I feel like I did prison time since I became 20.

This is a very stupid concerm because there are people in their 40's still looking gret and working out and leqrning new things, but I just can't stop feeling like trash.

Also, I'm not trying to make anyone feel bad about their age, it's just something that hit me suddenly. I wasn't like this a few weeks ago. Might be side effects of depression?
 
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idontknowwhatiam

Arcanist
Sep 10, 2025
420
Probably, yes. I didn't really feel old until I hit 60 last month. You have a lot of life ahead of you.
 
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Suicidalastronaut

Member
Jan 13, 2026
32
I do tech support and most of my calls are elderly people. There's no way in hell that I will allow myself to grow old. The cognitive decline is so awful.
 
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badatparties

badatparties

Elementalist
Mar 16, 2025
814
Lot's of men die in their 20's and aren't buried till old age.
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,598
I'm 60 and I dread the idea of becoming incapacitated by some means like having a heart attack or stroke, even dementia, getting a disease such as cancer, having no one to help me, needing to have my ass wiped and be spoon fed. No way, not for me. One of the reasons I'm getting out while I still can.
 
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idontknowwhatiam

Arcanist
Sep 10, 2025
420
I'm 60 and I dread the idea of becoming incapacitated by some means like having a heart attack or stroke, even dementia, getting a disease such as cancer, having no one to help me, needing to have my ass wiped and be spoon fed. No way, not for me. One of the reasons I'm getting out while I still can.
Same! I'm 60 as well
 
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2muchpain2

Experienced
Feb 27, 2025
235
I'm 60 and I dread the idea of becoming incapacitated by some means like having a heart attack or stroke, even dementia, getting a disease such as cancer, having no one to help me, needing to have my ass wiped and be spoon fed. No way, not for me. One of the reasons I'm getting out while I still can.
honestly, one of my biggest reasons for wanting to ctb. I want to have control over my life and when it ends. I would love to die in an accident or something, but aside from that, I refuse to die from a disease. i hope that doesn't sound distasteful, but I just am not the type of person to be ok with that and therefore, would not allow that to happen to me.
 
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UnoX48

Member
Jan 6, 2026
36
Honnêtement, c'est l'une des principales raisons pour lesquelles je souhaite mourir. Je veux avoir le contrôle de ma vie et de sa fin. J'aimerais mourir dans un accident ou quelque chose du genre, mais à part ça, je refuse de mourir d'une maladie. J'espère que ça ne paraît pas déplacé, mais je ne suis tout simplement pas du genre à accepter ça et, par conséquent, je ne permettrai pas que cela m'arrive.
I'm 40 years old and I've been chronically ill since I was 29. You're right not to accept the illness. Do what's necessary if it happens because this isn't living.
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,598
I would love to die in an accident or something, but aside from that, I refuse to die from a disease. i hope that doesn't sound distasteful,
I'd prefer to die in my sleep and be completely aloof as to when it would happen. Not distasteful at all, least not from my perspective.
 
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aRose

aRose

Tired AF
Jan 18, 2026
323
My grandmother spent years in a chair waiting to die. She'd always say "getting old isn't for sissies"
I agree with her. And I'm a sissy. Oh well!
 
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Tobacco

Tobacco

Efilist. Possible promortalist.
Jan 14, 2023
277
I'm not having children so there won't really be someone to take care of me. I'll have to ctb sooner or later. Meanwhile I'm alive because of my family.
 
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SASU-KE

Wizard
Nov 26, 2025
650
I'm not having children so there won't really be someone to take care of me. I'll have to ctb sooner or later. Meanwhile I'm alive because of my family.
Having children doesn't mean they'll take care of you. I know a wealthy old woman who has three successful daughters and they've put her in an old age home. If it comes down to that, then we can just check ourselves in a care facility.Why do we need children to take care of us?

Plus, children are leaving home and going to different cities or countries in search of jobs and starting families there. I know people who have died alone in their homes and their children didn't even know about it until their neighbors found out later and informed them.


In my case though, I definitely do not want to get too old because I won't be able to do the things I like doing.It's pointless.
 
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Deer_Dairy

Member
Jan 19, 2026
78
I can assure you, you will feel almost the same in your head when you are older. You will percieve yourself very similar in your 40 as now.
You will have more experience, will be seeing some things differently, but it will still be you.
And body? If you care, even in your 60's you can look very charming and have fully functional body.
 
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singingcrow

singingcrow

Student
Jul 7, 2024
185
the older i get the more embarrassed i am because i don't have my life together . 35 is the max age i ever want to be(26 rn)
 
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capi

Just a matter of time.
Nov 13, 2023
298
I genuinely CANNOT imagine LIVING TO 40, and having ANOTHER 40 YEARS TO GO !!!!
That actually is insane to me and makes me SICK!!!!

people telling me I have a whole life ahead of me just feels wrong.. because everytime i want to start something new for myself i just cant because its something i should have learned earlier or something competitive that a million people younger than me have succeeded 10x.
Engineering, music etc. sure i can learn into it but because of my age i will never be able to do anything with it. And some things like ballet i cant learn at all because teachers quite literally dont accept adults.
What the hell is up with that? How do old people do anything?
 
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2muchpain2

Experienced
Feb 27, 2025
235
As many have said before, being alive absolutely sucks when you do not want to be here anymore. I just don't know how to leave!!
 
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