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greygoosechoose

Member
Sep 19, 2025
7
Delaying CTB because you might get lucky and die of natural causes or some other random tragic event?

In my case I had a surgery last year where I had like a 40% chance of death, but I didn't die. Still paying that bill

HOWEVER now there is a very small chance that this constant pressure I've been feeling on my temple forehead for months will lead to stroke and other medical complications :)

I "should" get it checked by the doctor, but they would either find there is nothing wrong or put me on some treatment that is costly.

Rationally speaking I should get it checked either way because my quality of life could nosedive if I survive, but honestly I can't think of anything else holding me back from CTB than the hope that my life will end on its own anyways.
 
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58Alice85

58Alice85

Autogynephile
Aug 31, 2025
189
This kind of thinking can be dangerous.
Thought i got 'lucky' with some neurological issues a couple of months ago.
sadly i am still alive
 
steppen_wolf

steppen_wolf

Member
Sep 23, 2025
7
I used to think a lot like this, especially imagining that it might lessen the suffering of the people I'd leave behind, but nowadays I feel like I can't leave it up to chance anymore.
 
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AZRAEL600

Member
Sep 19, 2025
21
I hoped covid would kill me. But here I am still alive.
 
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zizzou

Member
Sep 25, 2025
43
The way my luck is going I know I will have to do it myself
 
certified_idiot

certified_idiot

No Longer Human
Dec 5, 2023
88
I am physically disabled to to several chronic progressive conditions and none of them can kill me :(

It's very annoying because I'm in constant pain but the pain can't kill me. My immune system is getting progressively worse each year, but it isn't compromised enough for doctors to care yet. Maybe in a few years I'll contract pneumonia and die because my body is too fucked up to fight it off. That's probably as close as I'll get.
 
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Xielian

Xielian

Not quite a human, not yet a ghost.
Jul 22, 2024
32
I am physically disabled to to several chronic progressive conditions and none of them can kill me :(

It's very annoying because I'm in constant pain but the pain can't kill me. My immune system is getting progressively worse each year, but it isn't compromised enough for doctors to care yet. Maybe in a few years I'll contract pneumonia and die because my body is too fucked up to fight it off. That's probably as
im in the exact same boat right now :( its hell.
 
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greygoosechoose

Member
Sep 19, 2025
7
Yeah I'm risking blindness by not getting it checked out, I'm going to go to the doctor soon :/ what a waste of resources..

My condolences to both of you. The human bodies ability to endure can be rather unfortunate.
 
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that_miqo'te

Member
May 27, 2024
27
Unfortunately it can be painful, took 4 days of seeing doctors to be admitted to a hospital this year and I came within 24 hours of dying of natural causes lol, unfortunately so painful I did seek help
 
ChildrensITV

ChildrensITV

Arcanist
Mar 14, 2023
480
I've wish that would happen to me but I know for a fact I'm going to end up living til 85. This universe wants me to suffer as much as possible.
 

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