Venting Getting hospitalized instead of chasing the bus seems like a good compromise to me

[hypeandauramoments]

I remember a few years ago when I was in high school, I got hospitalized for a few months and it was actually the most peaceful time I've ever had, occasional crying and screaming sounds aside, I didn't have to do my assignments, didn't have to see my family members, and all I had to think about was to rest. I'm in uni now, and I feel like my problems are a thousand times worse compared to back then, while reminiscing it starts seeming like just getting myself hospitalized would be good enough, I don't know, I don't have to fully be gone, but just the thought of me not having to think of anything else and people suddenly caring when you get hurt physically... that feels so nice to me. I know it's not reaally something good, but now instead of looking for methods on how to ctb, I'm looking for methods on how to get *mildly* hurt. At least it's a step forward lol

 

[zdeweilx]

Same, and the meds they put you on hit like crack for some reason, just existing feels so eerie

 

[byec560]

Why? It's not like anything changes after the psych ward, other than the digits in your bank account that is. If you're worried about your family they're probably gonna annoy you even more after a looney bin stay. Take it from me.

 

[hypeandauramoments]

Why? It's not like anything changes after the psych ward, other than the digits in your bank account that is. If you're worried about your family they're probably gonna annoy you even more after a looney bin stay. Take it from me.

I'm not talking about the psych ward! Had a lot of health problems and fortunately healthcare is affordable here. And as for my family, as long as I get to be freed from them at least temporarily I'd do anything (I'd just lock myself in my room for way longer than usual if they annoy me more anyways). Like yes I know nothing will change in the long run but I just want a little bit of rest and this looks like the best option for me for some reason

 

[calebzz1]

I remember a few years ago when I was in high school, I got hospitalized for a few months and it was actually the most peaceful time I've ever had, occasional crying and screaming sounds aside, I didn't have to do my assignments, didn't have to see my family members, and all I had to think about was to rest. I'm in uni now, and I feel like my problems are a thousand times worse compared to back then, while reminiscing it starts seeming like just getting myself hospitalized would be good enough, I don't know, I don't have to fully be gone, but just the thought of me not having to think of anything else and people suddenly caring when you get hurt physically... that feels so nice to me. I know it's not reaally something good, but now instead of looking for methods on how to ctb, I'm looking for methods on how to get *mildly* hurt. At least it's a step forward lol

I totally understand where you are coming from.

I've never been hospitalized overnight or went to a psych ward personally but I really like the idea of "giving up" and being in a facility until I can receive adequate treatment to improve my overall level of function.

I know that it's not worth it due to the high amount of bills that would be occurred and it being on my record of course.

Also, I don't have disability benefits so I would not be protected against my credit score dropping.

I wish I had a team that advocated for my condition and knew exactly what to do for what I'm going through.

I'm used to dealing with it all alone since my condition is already poorly known and my neuropsychiatrist recently stated that in his time of working in the industry for eleven years there has been only four people like my case.

A top adult strabismus surgeon and neuro-ophthalmologist also stated the same too.

I keep thinking about this one fan animation about Deltarune and the idea of being frozen to help pass the time until I get a cure or something that will directly help my situation.

 

[EmptyBottle]

Part of me also doesn't mind if I need to go to the hospital for a few days or weeks (so long as whatever accidental or random thing didn't cause too much pain), tho hopefully I'll be able to take my laptop there.

If you're worried about your family they're probably gonna annoy you even more after a looney bin stay. Take it from me.

idk why family members become more (to varying degrees) annoying after one gets medical/mental health treatment. For me, after some gut thing was discovered, family reminded me about it sometimes :|

 

[itsgone2]

I'd be interested if it were forever. But I don't think it is. They want to fix and release

But what if there is no fixing? They won't admit it. Killers get released. What hope do I have?

 

[goodtime]

honestly, i've been reminiscing on my time in the psych ward. it's exactly what you said, there's no responsibilities. no burden. you just exist with no expectations and other people take care of you and tell you what to do and when. while it was so horrible in some ways, it was amazing in others.

 

[Bishop]

honestly, i've been reminiscing on my time in the psych ward. it's exactly what you said, there's no responsibilities. no burden. you just exist with no expectations and other people take care of you and tell you what to do and when. while it was so horrible in some ways, it was amazing in others.

So a vacation at a 24/7 fully inclusive resort. There are plenty of those in Mexico.

I'm not talking about the psych ward! Had a lot of health problems and fortunately healthcare is affordable here. And as for my family, as long as I get to be freed from them at least temporarily I'd do anything (I'd just lock myself in my room for way longer than usual if they annoy me more anyways). Like yes I know nothing will change in the long run but I just want a little bit of rest and this looks like the best option for me for some reason

That's what vacations are called.

 

[goodtime]

So a vacation at a 24/7 fully inclusive resort. There are plenty of those in Mexico.

That's what vacations are called.

sort of. probably just as expensive though.
have you ever been in a psych ward? it's hard to explain what it is really like day to day to people who haven't been.
where i was, i wasn't allowed to have any technology and they would regularly shut the phones and tvs off
there is absolutely no stimulation or anything to think about or do, you pace the halls in circles for hours and try to read in between people coming to poke and prod and administering medications. it's a different level of having no responsibility. the most exciting part of the day every day is snack time. it is like being in a sensory deprivation tank mentally