Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Always so painful to be conscious in this existence.
I truly will always find it so painful to be conscious in this existence and there's just so much pain, torture and cruelty in existing, all I want is to be gone, I just want peace from the terrible cruelty and suffering of existing.

I just want to be permanently unconscious of this existence, to be conscious in this existence is the most painful, dreadful burden to me and I suffer simply from existing, I just hope to be gone, I wish for no more torture and no more suffering and I'll always see the abomination of existence as just being only suffering, I'll always prefer to not exist than suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence truly does just cause harm.
It truly does just cause suffering and harm with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and it's just so terrible how this dreadful, harmful existence was imposed, I'll just always see the existence of life as the most terrible devastating tragedy that just causes all this torture and suffering and I'll just always find it torture to suffer in this existence.

To me existence is just always a mistake and it's one that just harms and tortures existing beings, for me the peace of non-existence is just all that's positive and desirable, nothing would ever make me wish for the torture and cruelty of existing.

 

[Cauliflour]

Tbh this account seems like a bot/automated. No disrespect intended, but the posts in this thread all sound the same and they don't engage with comments.

Who the hell is programming bots for fucking sanctioned suicide!? I can understand on twitter or facebook or ones of those sites cause it gives you attention, but why on sasu? Did they piss off someone irl before they died and this is part of some weird revenge plan cause that's all I can think of.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

Who the hell is programming bots for fucking sanctioned suicide!? I can understand on twitter or facebook or ones of those sites cause it gives you attention, but why on sasu? Did they piss off someone irl before they died and this is part of some weird revenge plan cause that's all I can think of.

It could be to spread some weird kind of agenda lol.

 

[geepeedee]

It could be to spread some weird kind of agenda lol.

like what? all it does is post in here and wish peace in ctb threads.

 

[Cauliflour]

It could be to spread some weird kind of agenda lol.

Hmmm fair point. They are one of the most famous users on this forum after all. In fact, didn't that youtube video from about a year ago, didn't they bring up funeralcry too? I don't remember the specifics as when I watched that video I just laughed at it for a total of 5 minutes while skipping to random parts and then got bored. Does make me wonder how many users from the early days (2018-2020) are still on here though...

 

[bl33ding_heart]

Hmmm fair point. They are one of the most famous users on this forum after all. In fact, didn't that youtube video from about a year ago, didn't they bring up funeralcry too? I don't remember the specifics as when I watched that video I just laughed at it for a total of 5 minutes while skipping to random parts and then got bored. Does make me wonder how many users from the early days (2018-2020) are still on here though...

They said it could be the person that owns the website on an alt. Or some weirdo that wants to indirectly encourage suicide. Not that it's necessarily true at all but still a little uncomfortable to think about.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me will always just be waiting to die.
No matter what existing to me will always just be waiting to die and I always suffer so much as a result of waiting for death in this cruel, terrible existence that just causes all this torture and suffering, all I want is to be gone.

I just want this torturous existence to be all gone, forgotten and erased for me with no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer as a result of being conscious burdened with this torturous, dreadful existence, I just want peace from the pain and torture of existing and for me non-existence is just the only relief from this existence I just always saw as the most terrible, cruel mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much torture in existing.
There truly is just so much torture and cruelty in existing and no matter what nothing would ever make me wish for this existence of torturous suffering that I just always saw as a mistake that just causes all this harm and suffering, all I want is to be gone.

I just wish for peace from the terrible pain and suffering of existing and no matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist than be tortured by this existence, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable in this existence that just harms existing beings, I'll always find it torturous to be conscious in this terrible, cruel existence of unnecessary suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only ever hoping for the peace of eternal sleep.
No matter what the peace of an eternal sleep is just all I could hope and wish for, I just want to be free from the suffering, torture and cruelty of existing, I just want to never suffer ever again, only eternal sleep can solve and bring me the relief I search for from what I see as the true problem which is existence itself.

I just hope for no more torture and no more suffering and I'll just always find it torture to exist, for me non-existence is just the only peace and is all I see as desirable in this existence I just always saw as a mistake, I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much terrible cruelty in existing.
There really is so much terrible cruelty in existing which is why I'll only be glad to never suffer again, all I want is for all to be gone and forgotten for me in the peace of non-existence wit no more torture and no more suffering.

I'll just always find it torture to suffer in this existence, for me non-existence is just the only peace from the cruelty and torture of existing, all I hope for is no more pain and no more suffering, to just never suffer again is all I see as positive, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for true peace from the terrible cruelty and torture of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for true permanent peace.
No matter what only true permanent peace is all that I could see as desirable, I just wish for no more torture and no more suffering, I just hope to be unconscious of the terrible mistake of existence that just harms and tortures existing beings.

To suffer in this existence is just always the most torturous burden to me and I just suffer so much as a result of this cruel existence, there's just so much cruelty, suffering and torture in this dreadful existence, I just want all to be forgotten for me, I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous, cruel existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence will always be a mistake to me.
It will always be a mistake to me and I'll just always see the existence of life as the most terrible, devastating tragedy that just causes all this torture, harm and suffering, to me existence will just always be the most terrible mistake and it's one that only ever causes pain with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

To be conscious burdened with this existence of torturous suffering truly is an abomination and I suffer simply from existing, the torture and suffering of existing really is endless and I suffer simply from being burdened with this dreadful existence that just harms existing beings, I only hope for no more suffering.

 

[chelpus]

Who the hell is programming bots for fucking sanctioned suicide!? I can understand on twitter or facebook or ones of those sites cause it gives you attention, but why on sasu? Did they piss off someone irl before they died and this is part of some weird revenge plan cause that's all I can think of.

It could be that they have already passed away at around 2024, when they stopped responding to comments, and wanted to immortalize who they are and what they represent, leaving a trace of themselves in the internet that would last until this website goes down.

Though I doubt it's automated, there seems to be a point where they stop actively posting for about 8 hours, presumably sleeping, and I've seen some recent posts where they have made some typos, which makes me feel concerned if the account wasn't automated.

Out of respect, I didn't want to dig too deep into this, I've only looked around for about a few minutes before I started typing this comment.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to not exist than suffer.
I truly will always prefer to not exist than suffer and in this existence so dreadful, cruel and torturous only non-existence can bring me peace, I just will always prefer to not exist and for me non-existence is just all that's positive and desirable.

Existing to me is torture and I find it so painful and horrible how the torture of existing can continue for decades longer just for one to face the extreme terrible agony of old age, I just want to be gone, for me ceasing to exist will always be the positive solution.