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It seemed a little more negative than positive to me. I actually felt a little discouraged reading it. Thanks though, I want all the info, good, bad and in between. This would be a dumb place to try to talk you out of it, Im sure you have your reasons, so best of luck
Yeah, i havent tested anything, but I really think Im gonna struggle to kick over the ladder
You're strong to have coped this long! I can't imagine what you must be going through. I'm so blessed I still have my health and that's probably the one thing stopping me doing it...I know I'm lucky to not be living in pain. Although the reason I want to go is because I've seen my family in pain before they died and that's stayed with me and very hard to come to terms with (my dad had cancer and was in terrible pain for months) I wish I could delete the memories and then I might stick around but I can't so it's like I'm carrying round this weight on my shoulders the whole time because it's horrible seeing someone else in pain even if that time is over now...it's a terrible world this isn't it.
Did you hit your sweet spot each time or did you pass out from being unable to breathe?
I hear you, I'm also in chronic congition, so i do understand. I tried it but was so painful I couldn't continue.... If only we could access peaceful way but seems near on impossible to obtain sn or n or be accepted in Switzerland without diagnosis.
I'm sorry you had to go through all that. I have to live in pain, but I've never watched a loved one suffer through it. Obviously I can't know how you're feeling, but as you say, their time is over now and you could still have a life to live if you could move past it. If it happened recently (I don't know if it did), maybe you just need to give yourelf some time. No judgement, I know thats not what this site is for, I'm just mentioning it.
Full suspension? Did you black out or stop before then?
How far did you get? Painful how? The pressure on the neck or what?
I'm in the same situation; chronic pain that won't go away, and I can't live like this any more. I plan to get into full hang set up, ready to go, then quickly take lots of sedatives, all prepared and ready to drink - fatal dose of phenobarbital, Xanax, opiates, amatriptyline, dipenhydramine, whilst a bit drunk too, then just hang and hope for the best - what more can I do?
My dad was over 10 years ago and I finally did get past it although it took years. My gran died 6 months ago and that's what's upsetting me right now although I've been suicidal on and off ever since my dad died. There is a lot of guilt involved and "what ifs"-I also feel like when someone dies after being in pain that's the lasting memory you have of them replaying over and over so it's hard to stop thinking about it. I also take things very badly anyway. I don't have years to spend in grief again until I feel a bit better, plus the world is going to hell anyway lol. I am giving myself til the end of the year probably, I don't want my mum to lose me so soon after my gran.
I agree. I got referred to the 'crisis team' again this week, after telling my Dr of my plan to CTB, and they said they'd refer me back to the 'pain clinic' for more physio with the physio bitch from hell, and for more Cognitive Behavioural Therapy - it's such a joke, the idea you can THINK through the pain with their silly workbooks and get on with your life - I told her that's not something I'm prepared to do again because we tried it once before and it did nothing, and her response was that I'm not cooperating, so as far as she is concerned, they've done everything they can to help me, and that's that. I told her, this is ALL just about ticking the boxes so that when I die, you don't lose your job. She was quite happy to just end the conversation there. I don't know why some people go into health care, because they don't care one bit. All they care about is their generous salary and pension.
I wouldn't think they'd recommend CBT for pain but then I'm not an expert. That's kinda insulting that you are dealing with pain and need help with that not your mind! I agree some people are just not cut out for that job! Are you in the UK? I feel like the US has loads more options pain med wise, drugs I've never even heard of and yet over here Morphine is basically the main thing you ever get prescribed. I hear Fentanyl talked about a lot-not sure if it's becoming more widely prescribed but I wanted my dad to get on it and there was basically no way, doesn't happen, just Morphine which wasn't strong enough. There is a huge reluctance over here to prescribe meds.
I understand, it must be tough. Well, I hope you figure it out one way or another. It would be nice if doctors could do more for pain. You'd think by now they'd have some way to kill it properly. It would be cool if they could just stop the brain's pain signals all together some how.
Cool, I just wanted to make sure. What size rope did you use and where was the placement? Also, how much do you weigh if you don't mind saying? I weigh 250 and I'm wondering if weight plays any role. Sorry for all the questions, I'm jst rying to be thorough
The NHS's main recommendation now for pain, through the pain clinic, is CBT, along with the generic, print-out of physio exercises that don't help at all. It's just insulting, the idea that I'm in pain because of my faulty, negative thinking habits. I completely understand CBT and use it generally in my every day life, and I know that my thinking has nothing to do with the pain I'm in. My Dr has agreed to put me on 20mg a day of 'quick release' Oxycodone, after the 'slow release' version was ineffective. It definitely works better, dosing every few hours with a quick burst of a strong opiate. The only way I found this out was by buying it illegally online, which I told my Dr I was doing, which is the only reason they agreed to give it to me, to stop me buying it online, I still supplement with an extra 10mg bought illegally online though, which they don't know about. I'm now able to at least get off my bed and spend a few hours out the house a day. Morphine didn't touch my pain. Oxycodone is the only thing that helps. My biggest fear now is that they'll take me off it at some point, but I've made it clear to them that if they do, I will kill myself.
this is interesting - 15 to 30 seconds of a pain level of 7, whilst drunk and sedated on barbs and benzos and amatriptyline, then you're unconscious, and that's that? sounds alright to me!
Thanks for giving your experience. I get a click in my neck sometimes too (it comes and goes) so it may not be related? You are lucky you didn't get any other effects. Did you have a lasting headache or bloodshot eyes? How bad was the mark around your neck? It seems like you were so close but I understand why it put you off trying again.
I tried it a year ago I went to the attic jumped off a ladder and got into a circular motion. Somehow I got hold of a roof beam and got the ladder under me. Yeah, absolutely crap way to die.
Thanks for the info sounds rough. Would you mind being more specific about how it felt? Was there pain from the rope itself or just suffocation and how long were you hanging before you got hold of the roof beam? Did you feel like you would pass out soon? Sorry, just trying to be thorough
make sure you're higher than a bucket-length, and there are no bicycle pedals nearby, and you have no choice but to go through with it - this person did not 'survive a full hang', he survived a 'bucket slip bicycle pedal neck slippy thing'
