Venting Fucking angry and just need to ... Howl!!!

[charlie_z]

Jan 31, 20

When I was a kid in school, 2'nd grade I think, I used to scribble the words 'Help Me' onto the butcher's paper we used to cover the schoolbooks. How even then I knew how fucked I was is beyond me. I don't want to do this anymore. I don't want to talk to therapist anymore. I don't want to hate my mother anymore. I don't want to be alone anymore. I don't want to ceaselessly tell my myself how useless and pointless my life is anymore.

I am nothing. I am not known. I am growing into desperation and hate. I am growing unable to feel love and beauty. All I know now is fear and anxiety. And I am a coward. I should have taken my life long ago.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

You are here, You ARE somebody, maybe just a someone who is lost, confused and clearly in a lot of pain, but you are most defo someone!!
You are NOT a coward, you are speaking up, you are saying your emotions no matter how bad they are, it takes a brave someone to do that.

Take a moment, take a breath, and talk to us here, we cannot solve your problem's, we cannot take away your pain, but we can hear you.

 

[Epsilon0]

I see you @charlie_z and I read your post, so you are not nothing. You are here, just like me. I don't know where here is, but I guess it's somewhere in time and space. I, too, am crushed by the futility of our existence.

(Well at least we'll always have Humphrey Bogart and his amazing movies. Cool profile picture!)

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

You are not nothing. You are someone to us.

 

[porfin1234]

I see you as well ... thank you for sharing your thoughts and I hear you loud and clear.
You're not nothing... you're a human being that's breathing and alive and full of thoughts and emotions, unique experiences, and I mean hell, just think of how complex our bodies and minds are... you're definitely not "Nothing"