Fucked up college class a 3rd time

[Kerock]

I tucked up. It's funny because it's just chem and it's an easy A class and yet still I'm on the verge of failing. Same for my physics class. Getting an A was viable. But I knew I would somehow fuck up and coinciously/subconsciously I procrastinated enough until I did. I can't even function anymore. I think I am at the stage where I will just kill myself soon. Already started to write down my notes. And even if I manage to scrape by and pass, I still feel like my future is hopeless. I think I just need to be drunk to end it tbh. I'm already an addict anyways. It's honestly pathetic since I do come from a well off family, and yet I can't even do basic tasks like do hw, brush my teeth, groom myself, etc etc. the only respite I have is that I won't have to feel guilty about wasting too much money since I go to a community college so the tuitions are much much cheaper.

 

[vuberpoot1]

Are you sure that you're not just struggling with motivation? College is supposed to be hard, and everyone is gonna find certain things hard even when everyone claims they're easy. I think you have the potential to keep moving forward, even though you feel the way you do. Try to find a way to make a schedule for yourself, find ways to improve your concentration, and review your performance to see where you should focus working on. It's all much easier said than done, but I think you can do it.