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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

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pariah80

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I'm right there with you. Let's at least try to make it tolerable. 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂
 
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L'absent

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I wish you a happy new year anyway.😅
 
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ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
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I just hope that a roge fireworks shell smashes into my head and kills me instantly, or that someone shoots their gun in the air and the bullet comes back down straight through the center of my brain stem.
 
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divinemistress87

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I just hope that a roge fireworks shell smashes into my head and kills me instantly, or that someone shoots their gun in the air and the bullet comes back down straight through the center of my brain stem.
I had a stroke in my brainstem I was pissed it didnt kill me lol
 
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kitkat9234

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Nov 27, 2024
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Fuck this shit. Another miserable year. I pray every night that I don't wake up yet here I am. I
Literally curse out loud in the morning. Why is it so hard to CTB?
 
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outrider567

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Apr 5, 2022
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Just another crap year ahead with little enjoyment and little to look forward to
 
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nomoredolor

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Sep 7, 2024
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I had a stroke in my brainstem I was pissed it didnt kill me lol
One day I had horrible chest pain and thought I was having a heart attack. I am still young, early 30s, but I have mild cardiac concerns so it was plausible. I immediately relaxed and had a flood of dopamine because I thought I may be dying. I had my phone in my hand and could've called for help but instead I set it down and smiled. I relaxed so much that the severe muscle spasm I was having eased. And I realized I wasn't dying and I was pissed.

Anna
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Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

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My biggest 2024 regret.....

4352cd24ebd911b36f2f92ce5288cd5e


So my 2025 plan is....

Download
 
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divinemistress87

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One day I had horrible chest pain and thought I was having a heart attack. I am still young, early 30s, but I have mild cardiac concerns so it was plausible. I immediately relaxed and had a flood of dopamine because I thought I may be dying. I had my phone in my hand and could've called for help but instead I set it down and smiled. I relaxed so much that the severe muscle spasm I was having eased. And I realized I wasn't dying and I was pissed.

Anna
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Had a friend die of a heart attack in his sleep in his 30s so jealous
 
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kitkat9234

Arcanist
Nov 27, 2024
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One day I had horrible chest pain and thought I was having a heart attack. I am still young, early 30s, but I have mild cardiac concerns so it was plausible. I immediately relaxed and had a flood of dopamine because I thought I may be dying. I had my phone in my hand and could've called for help but instead I set it down and smiled. I relaxed so much that the severe muscle spasm I was having eased. And I realized I wasn't dying and I was pissed.

Anna
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I wish I could some how trigger a heart attack.
 
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Versailles

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I wish you a happy new year 2015
 
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grungy自殺

grungy自殺

Unloveable
Jan 9, 2024
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I only have 3 more years left until I'm ending my life
 
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grungy自殺

grungy自殺

Unloveable
Jan 9, 2024
164
Why 3 years?
Because there's so much to do

A lot to do to

in preparation for my death

Because I want to make it happen without hesitancy and make sure my si does not stand in the way

hoping to leave a ton left behind for my reasons

a note I would say

A suicide note
 
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LukaParrot

Student
Dec 18, 2024
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Celebrate New Year GIF by Lucas and Friends by RV AppStudios

Exorcist scary movie 2
 
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Valhala

Valhala

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I love every post you make, you always hit the spot.
 
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theshund

Student
Jan 1, 2025
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Because there's so much to do

A lot to do to

in preparation for my death

Because I want to make it happen without hesitancy and make sure my si does not stand in the way

hoping to leave a ton left behind for my reasons

a note I would say

A suicide note
I know it's not what you meant but I like the idea of a suicide note that took 3 years to write. A suicide book. The size of a brick. Good luck reading that people left behind 😋
 
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nihilistic_dragon

nihilistic_dragon

Dead already. Just need to dispose of my body now.
Aug 6, 2024
884
Yes, fuck it. The new year has already gone to shit for me it seems like. I'm in such a foul mood. Couldn't have asked for a shittier start of the year.
 
maniac116

maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
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I agree!
Stupidest day/holiday of the year🤗🌹💔
 
grungy自殺

grungy自殺

Unloveable
Jan 9, 2024
164
I know it's not what you meant but I like the idea of a suicide note that took 3 years to write. A suicide book. The size of a brick. Good luck reading that people left behind 😋

Yeah that's actually what I've been trying to articulate or refer in that sense

But it's more of a document (that's about the length of a short novel) that I'm currently writing that details my reasons and personal cause that I've dealt and seen, that gives my justification for doing so
 
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dontwakemeup

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Nov 11, 2024
910
Least we are 1 year closer to our death!! It's almost over!!
 
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