thedevilwithin

thedevilwithin

anima vestra
Oct 4, 2023
149
sometimes i get moments of peace where i think about living in a small cabin with my own little family. that maybe things will be okay, but then when reality sets in and i remember everything. i remember who and what i am. i remember how unlovable and useless i am. it's torture. when i was younger i did have hope, it wasn't much but it was there. today however there's nothing left, i feel empty and numb. there is no hope. sometimes i don't want to die but i really don't have a choice. what a wasteful existence. i feel so much shame.
 
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mia_qwerty

Student
Apr 13, 2023
153
Here to chat if you need. I'm sorry you feel that way. Maybe it's not true. Maybe you are loveable. Even if you don't feel it.
 
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IWishToDie

IWishToDie

I check notifications once per week
Dec 31, 2023
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sometimes i get moments of peace where i think about living in a small cabin with my own little family. that maybe things will be okay, but then when reality sets in and i remember everything. i remember who and what i am. i remember how unlovable and useless i am. it's torture. when i was younger i did have hope, it wasn't much but it was there. today however there's nothing left, i feel empty and numb. there is no hope. sometimes i don't want to die but i really don't have a choice. what a wasteful existence. i feel so much shame.
I spoke to the devil in Miami, he said everything would be fine <3
 
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letmeoutofthis

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Feb 5, 2024
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The situation my brain got me to is unbelievable
 
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SeaBreeze

SeaBreeze

Suicideation?
Jul 11, 2023
146
I had a piece of my brain surgically removed to stop tonic-clonic seizures..........without success
 
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DesperateOne

DesperateOne

Specialist
May 25, 2023
318
Same... I have these moments of peace, happiness, motivation. I want to do something with my life, talk to people, make friends, get a girlfriend, but then my brain snaps back.
 
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