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Noonespecial

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Mar 1, 2020
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I successfully pushed away the one person that actually gave a shit which is what I always do. Kind of don't even care anymore if they're the one that finds me and that's what was stopping me before. Taking the SN tonight and hopefully that will be it.
 
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one4all

one4all

I'll put pennies on your eyes and it will go away.
Feb 3, 2020
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I'm sorry things ain't working out for you. Is your roommate out of the house?
 
one4all

one4all

I'll put pennies on your eyes and it will go away.
Feb 3, 2020
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Nope but like I said I don't care anymore

Hopefully you won't be disturbed for several hours then. Are you just doing sedatives with the SN, or taking anything else?
 
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Soul

gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
Apr 12, 2019
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@Noonespecial, I'm sorry you're in pain, but please bear in mind that sn takes a while to work. If there's someone else in the house who could find you unconscious and call medical personnel, that's probably not going to improve your situation. Please be careful. Don't rush into this.
 
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akrasia

akrasia

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Feb 11, 2020
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I can tell you're in a great amount of pain. I wish I could tell you that it would get better but I don't know your life. All I could say is, think about this. Choosing to ctb is a big decision to make and it shouldn't be impulsive.
I wish you the best in whatever your decision is. :heart:
 
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whereispeace

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Mar 18, 2020
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I hope you find peace. I'm thinking about taking my SN tonight too, but it's a struggle for me. I keep procrastinating.
 
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one4all

one4all

I'll put pennies on your eyes and it will go away.
Feb 3, 2020
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I hope you find peace. I'm thinking about taking my SN tonight too, but it's a struggle for me. I keep procrastinating.

I feel actually what you are saying.
 
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Hopeindeath!

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Dec 7, 2019
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I'm sorry life is really bad for you. I wish you peace in whatever you decide.:hug: