Frustrated on lack of clear method

[MercenariesofMidgar]

Hello all, I really want to die (as well as most of you im sure) but the lack of clear method I feel like I can do has really made me even more depressed. Can't get SN, I could theoretically get a gun but realistically I know I wouldn't be able to.

So, I thought of hanging (or drowning) but I am clueless on where to find good places for either. Drowning feels more appealing to me, like as long as I have weights I don't have to worry about as many things going wrong... but I just checked really quickly to nearest lakes from me and they all look so populated...

I have a tree in my backyard but I feel like it'd be too easy to possibly see me and call the police. Same with a partial hanging in my closet. I also don't want to die at home and don't want to possibly traumatize my family seeing my corpse. Also I feel like too many things can go wrong with a partial... the worst would becoming unconscious and being woken up by someone in my house.

I'm willing to suffer during drowning if that means an eternity of peace. If I just knew where (；￣Д￣)
I am willing to try using pills but the laws in my state are strict and I feel like its just too much risk. would rather do something that I could go and do. I go to college so for a good 5 hours I'm to myself. Would appreciate any advice

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, it just feels so cruel how there isn't the option for me to just simply cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, I suffer so much from how painless, guaranteed death with no risks of trying to die going wrong is denied for me, I just wish for peace from this existence as well, permanent peace from this existence has been all I've ever hoped for. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[kitchenwindow197]

Hello all, I really want to die (as well as most of you im sure) but the lack of clear method I feel like I can do has really made me even more depressed. Can't get SN, I could theoretically get a gun but realistically I know I wouldn't be able to.

So, I thought of hanging (or drowning) but I am clueless on where to find good places for either. Drowning feels more appealing to me, like as long as I have weights I don't have to worry about as many things going wrong... but I just checked really quickly to nearest lakes from me and they all look so populated...

I have a tree in my backyard but I feel like it'd be too easy to possibly see me and call the police. Same with a partial hanging in my closet. I also don't want to die at home and don't want to possibly traumatize my family seeing my corpse. Also I feel like too many things can go wrong with a partial... the worst would becoming unconscious and being woken up by someone in my house.

I'm willing to suffer during drowning if that means an eternity of peace. If I just knew where (；￣Д￣)
I am willing to try using pills but the laws in my state are strict and I feel like its just too much risk. would rather do something that I could go and do. I go to college so for a good 5 hours I'm to myself. Would appreciate any advice

Its so unfair, especially when theres things that could make death painless.. We will just never have access to it Ive played around with so many different ways, dont do OD unless you have access to illegal drugs (heroin would be pretty pleasant), drowning wont work unless you have sedated yourself/ heavily medicated. Inert gasses are tricky because you have to get them just right so you dont wake up as a vegetable. For my method im thinking to combine a gas with hanging or drowning making the whole process painless and guaranteed to work. Hanging is probably easier and more predictable, youd have to fill a bag with the gas of your choice to stay unconscious (argon, nitrogen, 100% helium, butane, propane, lpg, N20)