Bootleg Astolfo
Glorious Bean Plushie
- Oct 12, 2020
- 1,039
I thought i was a man meeting his old friend after years appart, but no, im just a runaway dog who crawled back to his master. I always thought she was someone who could genuinly understand me, and that she wanted me around because even if not romantically, we both genuinly cared and respected each other to a point ive never had with anyone else. Nah... i was always just a little dog that's happy to see her and it made her feel nice, that's it. That's all there ever was. She's always shown me the absolute basic level of affection and care, knowing full well that's all she needed to have a good boy she can just use as an emotional dump and to praise her. Back then when she invited me to her place after right after she broke up with her boyfriend, i had to sleep on the floor an entire week, i thought she was just scared of him was in some sort of extreme distress that required a good friend present immediatly... Nah, she just didnt get what she wanted and needed a pet around for a bit. Watched movies in bed with my head on her shoulder ? Awwwww good doggie, very cute, now go sleep on the floor. Lap pillow ? Same, awww, my dog is on my lap.
Fucking sucks man, i work up the courage for years to talk to her again since i felt like a looser that no one would want around, spend an entire year talking to her just a bit more and more until i felt comfortable actually meeting her in person ,just to find out yeah, she wanted me around because im a looser she can just get free affection for the absolute bare minimum effort. She doesnt want to learn about me, she doesnt care about what i have going on, she just wants to have me happily bark at her sight whenever she does dumb shit and feel bad about it. I wanted to see if she either likes me or wanted to just be like, proper, good friends like i thought we could be, nah, im not even worth having as a friend, since that involves actually getting to know each other, im not worth basic effort. I'm not being creepy, i just told her i thought i maybe liked her, maybe it was just that i really like spending time with her and all it's ever gonna be is a lifelong friendship, that im very happy if that's the case, id love to have a friend like her, i'm not gonna just stand around miserably and hope she ends up with me, im actively doing stuff to meet people, ive been getting my shit together for a while, i just wanted to be honest with her so if there's nothing we can both just laugh about it and move on instead of it always being a bit awkward like its been, but no. The dog wants to be treated as an equal now, the master doesnt want that.
Fucking sucks man, i work up the courage for years to talk to her again since i felt like a looser that no one would want around, spend an entire year talking to her just a bit more and more until i felt comfortable actually meeting her in person ,just to find out yeah, she wanted me around because im a looser she can just get free affection for the absolute bare minimum effort. She doesnt want to learn about me, she doesnt care about what i have going on, she just wants to have me happily bark at her sight whenever she does dumb shit and feel bad about it. I wanted to see if she either likes me or wanted to just be like, proper, good friends like i thought we could be, nah, im not even worth having as a friend, since that involves actually getting to know each other, im not worth basic effort. I'm not being creepy, i just told her i thought i maybe liked her, maybe it was just that i really like spending time with her and all it's ever gonna be is a lifelong friendship, that im very happy if that's the case, id love to have a friend like her, i'm not gonna just stand around miserably and hope she ends up with me, im actively doing stuff to meet people, ive been getting my shit together for a while, i just wanted to be honest with her so if there's nothing we can both just laugh about it and move on instead of it always being a bit awkward like its been, but no. The dog wants to be treated as an equal now, the master doesnt want that.
