Venting Found meto just lying around

[nerve]

I had some weird bouts of nausea / vomiting and went to the emergency room for it like 18 months ago. They gave me a prescription for metoclopramide and I still have more than enough left for SN. I thought the antiemetic part would be the biggest obstacle but they're literally just there in a box in my closet. I'm kind of shaking? Ending my life has always seemed pretty implausible or overly-romantic, but now there's this clear and simple path. I can't just shrug and go "it's too hard / costs too much money / takes too long / hurts too much. Oh well!" anymore.

This is scaring me.

 

[Grandexit]

Well, you have a decision to make. I have my fully stocked sn kit, ready for when I am. Just because it's there, doesn't mean you have to gulp it down right away. You have all the time you need to sort things out. I hope you have clarity and peace while making these enormous decisions.

 

[Lastsauce]

You don't have to do it just because you found anti-emetics.
You have a way out if it gets unbearable, but it's the last thing you ever do.