Forum's list of N deaths?

[Dyingsoon]

Months back I remember finding a whole list of SN goodbye threads and experiences from the forum. Is there any N list?
I need some inspiration to go through with this all. As N is my method I think reading some stories might help me out. I really need to die guys, I am barely making it through the days now

 

[gizzreid]

if you don't mind me asking, how were you able to acquire N? (if you have acquired it yet, that is) i thought it was just basically impossible to get

 

[Dyingsoon]

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if you don't mind me asking, how were you able to acquire N? (if you have acquired it yet, that is) i thought it was just basically impossible to get

I got it from D back in the days

 

[Valky]

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I got it from D back in the days

Lucky ducky. Have you tried looking it up yet?

 

[Dyingsoon]

Lucky ducky. Have you tried looking it up yet?

If by "looking it up" you mean "testing" - no , I haven't. I am too scared to use a syringe to test because I am too unexperienced with this and might screw the bottle seal. The only option for testing I know is some lab in Spain but I don't think I could send it as this is too far away. I just gotta believe D sold the real deal.... I really hope it is not something else

 

[FuneralCry]

You are so fortunate to have N, it's literally the best method, I think that most of those who ctb by N when D was around probably didn't write about it on this site so there is no list. I at least know that if I had such a peaceful and reliable method I would have no need for a suicide forum once I know everything about the method itself.

This is the best thread on N, I think, it explains everything, I don't think you would learn much about N just by hearing that people have ctb that way.

The N Files 2.0

*This is an updated and revised version of the original thread* I've been getting messages from different people, asking all sorts of questions about N from D. I thought it would be convenient to put as much info as I can together in one place to make things easier for people. Where to find -...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[gizzreid]

If by "looking it up" you mean "testing" - no , I haven't. I am too scared to use a syringe to test because I am too unexperienced with this and might screw the bottle seal. The only option for testing I know is some lab in Spain but I don't think I could send it as this is too far away. I just gotta believe D sold the real deal.... I really hope it is not something else

what's the seal look like? odds are it's one of those resealable ones. i inject testosterone weekly and most injection vials have a resealable top, so when you pull the needle out it seals itself right back up. obviously if you're doing it over and over that'll wear it down, but one poke through won't effect it.

 

[Letgo]

Lucky you to have N...

 

[Valky]

If by "looking it up" you mean "testing" - no , I haven't. I am too scared to use a syringe to test because I am too unexperienced with this and might screw the bottle seal. The only option for testing I know is some lab in Spain but I don't think I could send it as this is too far away. I just gotta believe D sold the real deal.... I really hope it is not something else

I meant as searching some N goodbye threads on here :)

 

[Dyingsoon]

You are so fortunate to have N, it's literally the best method, I think that most of those who ctb by N when D was around probably didn't write about it on this site so there is no list. I at least know that if I had such a peaceful and reliable method I would have no need for a suicide forum once I know everything about the method itself.

This is the best thread on N, I think, it explains everything, I don't think you would learn much about N just by hearing that people have ctb that way.

The N Files 2.0

*This is an updated and revised version of the original thread* I've been getting messages from different people, asking all sorts of questions about N from D. I thought it would be convenient to put as much info as I can together in one place to make things easier for people. Where to find -...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Thank you , I will have a look at it.

I meant as searching some N goodbye threads on here :)

I have read some but I was just wondering if there is a list where they are put altogether, as it happened with the SN goodbye threads. I guess there isn't a list so I will search one by one.

what's the seal look like? odds are it's one of those resealable ones. i inject testosterone weekly and most injection vials have a resealable top, so when you pull the needle out it seals itself right back up. obviously if you're doing it over and over that'll wear it down, but one poke through won't effect it.

It is a rubber seal that allows using a syringe to extract the liquid but I think I am not going to risk messing something up with the seal or the bottle. I am suffering so much and if I screw my exit method I just don't know what I am gonna do.