Rena rossy

Rena rossy

will be blue
Dec 24, 2019
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being a burden to others ☑
feeling of not belonging ☑
lack of self preservation ☑ At least I think so...will be finding out soon
 
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Trisolaris

Trisolaris

Arcanist
Dec 11, 2018
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100% correct. Practice makes perfect. I think that most people who kill themselves work up to it and practice until they're ready and not do it as an impulsive act.
The first time I had suicidal thoughts, it scared the shit out of me. With each "wave" the thoughts became more familiar and less scary. Also, the planning got much more concrete and the attempts more serious. It is a hard thing to do. Maybe the hardest. So it makes complete sense that it requires a lot of practice.
 
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Ryan.s

Ryan.s

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Nov 29, 2019
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100% correct. Practice makes perfect. I think that most people who kill themselves work up to it and practice until they're ready and not do it as an impulsive act.
The first time I had suicidal thoughts, it scared the shit out of me. With each "wave" the thoughts became more familiar and less scary. Also, the planning got much more concrete and the attempts more serious. It is a hard thing to do. Maybe the hardest. So it makes complete sense that it requires a lot of practice.

Completely agree man. That is so interesting. Scared the crap out of me too the first time I had suicidal thoughts. Now it's daily routine. :)
 
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Mizzmini45

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Dec 1, 2019
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100% correct. Practice makes perfect. I think that most people who kill themselves work up to it and practice until they're ready and not do it as an impulsive act.
The first time I had suicidal thoughts, it scared the shit out of me. With each "wave" the thoughts became more familiar and less scary. Also, the planning got much more concrete and the attempts more serious. It is a hard thing to do. Maybe the hardest. So it makes complete sense that it requires a lot of practice.
Facts.
 
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Lils

Lils

Doneliving
Jan 11, 2020
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the thought of death never scared me. the thought of what it would do to my family is what is keeping me from doing it. why do the ties that bind us to this world have to be so painful
 
Aleandra Felix

Aleandra Felix

Give me peace or give me death
Jan 2, 2020
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Thank you. Really helpful. I think I kinda intuitively knew that, but never actively practiced. Lately I've been trying to put myself in more risky and dangerous situations. I'm also visiting theync.com. I'm pretty desensitezed to violence but I'm not sure if this is going to help to get into the right mindset to kill myself.

But I'll be working to reduce my self-preservation. I already "edge" suicide by tightening the rope around my neck and trying to cut my breath. I just need more consistent self-destruction
 
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passenger27

passenger27

In my beginning is my end.
Aug 25, 2019
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When I'm in doubt, I make myself remember the reasons I've decided to CTB. I think it's a form of SI to forget those things. "Things can get better." No, they can't. I seriously doubt there's some utopia waiting for me if I were to change my mind, I'm just buried under too many problems.
 
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reapandsow918

reapandsow918

Let the waves take me
Nov 6, 2019
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This is helpful, thank you.
 
Phinleh

Phinleh

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Dec 26, 2019
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Huh. Ticking all the boxes here so that's mildly reassuring.

The risk seeking behavior has gotten worse to the point where I nearly accidentally ctb a couple days ago after mixing pills and puking while passed out.
 
letmeseethedeath

letmeseethedeath

catching the bus
Aug 4, 2018
465
Here's a source that proposes a theory. I think this information is helpful to know if you want to get into the mindset to CTB, and overcome self-preservation. Hope this helps, https://www.fsu.edu/news/2006/01/11/deadly.perfection/
really helpful and i totally agree. some days i try to choke my self like i'm hanging and sometimes thinking of me being dead soon makes me calm and relaxed. good thing ❤️
 
veren4h92l

veren4h92l

Member
Aug 15, 2019
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Won't agree to that conclusion. Imo people totally squirm it.
Sounds even a bit cruel to me... but nice research then.

'...victims literally 'work up' to the act by getting used to danger, fear and pain'

That's shaming the wrong.
Perpetrators do 'work up' the victim, and the latter can't escape them anymore being too impaired to fight back or get help.

Of course I get used to fear, danger and pain if someone did expose me to that.

But I won't do it by choice, seriously.
I think it's a form of SI to forget those things.

Yeah that's what I wanted to express lol you're marking the point. Thank you.

Forgetting is no good, in particular if someone threatened you to take your life.
 
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AlreadyGone

AlreadyGone

Taking it day by day
Jan 11, 2020
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Thank you for this. It is very helpful.
 
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lymbo

Arcanist
Oct 12, 2019
483
good artycle OP. but l dyd not understand why older whyte males are the most at rysk of ctb, can someone elaborate?
 
BlueWidow

BlueWidow

Visionary
Oct 6, 2019
2,179
Very interesting and helpful article. Thanks for posting! :heart:
 
TheOA

TheOA

Student
Jan 5, 2020
101
Very interesting article, thank you for sharing.
I don't really agree with the author's theory on why people commit suicide (burden/belonging) but I do agree with this, "It's actually about fearlessness. You cannot do it unless you are fearless, and this is behavior that is learned."
 

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