Terminally ill
Member
- May 27, 2019
- 95
How do u feel? Do u feel peace and calmness or do u feel fear of failure and ending up worse and in a situation where u will not even have the chance to attempt suicide?
I don't feel anything I guess. I know people failed cause somebody found them, in my case there is no chance, so if I take SN and survive that will be miracle.
The ratio of lethality / sequellae seems better than other methods, except for N maybe.
I ve been unwillingly experimenting methemglobinemia state as unwanted effect of recreational inhalant.
As said it feels very drowsy, with tachycardia and short breathing. Body coordination is impaired too. Feeling much more than uneasy, like very drunk.
I ve been unwillingly experimenting methemglobinemia state as unwanted effect of recreational inhalant.
As said it feels very drowsy, with tachycardia and short breathing. Body coordination is impaired too. Feeling much more than uneasy, like very drunk.
ALittleBurden
Tens of personalities wearing one trench coat
- Aug 19, 2019
- 105
Generally suicide makes me anxious, because if I fail and my family will find out about it, my situation will certainly be much worse; but SN actually seems to be the best method I have available. I won't be able to take any meds with it, so the risks of failure and possible discomfort are bit higher, but I still think it's a good way to go.
Shinbu
Shiki
- Nov 23, 2019
- 477
I feel no fear of failure. I will succeed.
MysticPerception
I'm back and I'll still smile for you
- Dec 31, 2019
- 1,252
I feel pretty happy all I have to do is drink some salty water and take a few pills and I'm done. I mean I always wanted to just sleep and never wake up again so it's pretty ideal for me. Looking forward to it like it's Christmas morning and I'm 10 again.
Broken Chimera
The abyss also gazes into you
- May 27, 2019
- 972
I have a zero percent chance of being interrupted and "saved". When I'm ready I'll be able to leave with no regrets. I'm actually happy to leave after everything I had to deal with.
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
I have a little of both. There really shouldn't be much chance at all that I am discovered because I live alone and I intend to do it in the middle of the night when no one would come around, normally.
On the other hand, In the past I've had totally freak occurrences, such as once when I was a teenager and I ODed in the middle of the night. My sister (who never came over to our house or checked on me or anything even though I was usually alone for days at a time) just came over out of the blue looking for something at my dad's house. When she couldn't find what she was looking for, she tried to wake me up. When she couldn't wake me up, she freaked out and drove me to the hospital. Once again, they pumped a fatal dose of meds out of my stomach. I almost made it. I've had so many "almost made its" that I can't even count them all!
So I'm like 99.99% sure that I'm not going to be found, but I do allow that tiny percentage for some freak occurrence to happen, though the sister in question is dead so it would have to be someone else who found me.
On the other hand, In the past I've had totally freak occurrences, such as once when I was a teenager and I ODed in the middle of the night. My sister (who never came over to our house or checked on me or anything even though I was usually alone for days at a time) just came over out of the blue looking for something at my dad's house. When she couldn't find what she was looking for, she tried to wake me up. When she couldn't wake me up, she freaked out and drove me to the hospital. Once again, they pumped a fatal dose of meds out of my stomach. I almost made it. I've had so many "almost made its" that I can't even count them all!
So I'm like 99.99% sure that I'm not going to be found, but I do allow that tiny percentage for some freak occurrence to happen, though the sister in question is dead so it would have to be someone else who found me.
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BPD Barbie
Visionary
- Dec 1, 2019
- 2,361
I feel I have found the best method for me and I feel at peace and satisfied with it. It's the closest to a peaceful death I can achieve as I can't get N.
I'm confident it will work, zero doubts, It makes me excited, nauseous, relieved, and I can tell I am not ready to use it.
My fear of failure is present but my chances of of being found are minimal. I picked mine up from my mailbox today. I'm going to do my laundry, workout, file my taxes, clear out my storage, and go. I think it might actually be better if I don't leave a note. Better to leave a chance people think it was an accident.
Silly question as not looked too much into before but just looking at sites to buy putting in SN full name is it also called Saltp*tre? That's what come up
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-a-comprehensive-guide-including-method.25148/
squirtsoda
Fallen Eagle
- Jan 19, 2020
- 324
I don't fear being in a worse situation as much as I would with other methods, because it seems SN has relatively low risks of damage upon failure. Being in the US, as of current writing, not too hard to get my hands on if I need to again. I think I could stash some in different places. I've thought about ingesting it in a parking lot or somewhere I might not get bothered and dropping the containers outside somewhere, so they wouldn't be found with me. Idk.
Time
Looking to leave.
- Nov 10, 2019
- 264
Looks like that's nitrAte. You want nitrIte. Nano2 is what you want to look for.
squirtsoda
Fallen Eagle
- Jan 19, 2020
- 324
Saltpeter could be used in some things if you wanna go boom I guess though...bad joke
Time
Looking to leave.
- Nov 10, 2019
- 264
Throwmyselfaway
Not gone yet but soon
- Jan 14, 2020
- 798
I got mine today. It's like a little safety net right now that I might be pushed to use sooner rather then later
Dwnwrdsprl
Every living creature on this earth dies alone
- Jan 18, 2020
- 39
I'm most concerned about being in pain, I hate stomach pain BUT, I hate being here and in pain even more.
