Discussion for those not ready/choosing not to CTB, why ?

[betternever2havbeen]

I need to get sn along with an AE etc. and fully research it. Will stick around a couple more months probably. I hope anyone who has the chance to get better and find happiness gets that and anyone who doesn't have that chance (like me) finds peace

 

[RandomTuesday]

My wife and kids. The world is a huge cold fucked up place, but in our house it's not. I'm going to keep treading water for them until I can't.

 

[palesky]

i would probably ruin the lives of 5-7 people, havent found a successful method yet (scared of failing), and these little random moments of happiness that make me want to stay a little longer

 

[charlotte_]

Honestly just because I can't do it. I'm too scared of death, of pain, and fear that I'll regret something. Another reason is because of my cat and my good friends, though I doubt I matter to them that much.

 

[ChildrensITV]

The only thing that is between me and my death is the fact that there is ALWAYS someone home. Also still working on reducing SI. I will get there eventually.

You could go to a hotel. I am not advocating for you to CTB but if you are trapped cuz of living situations, then, there is a way around it. People who want to CTB will find a way.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm hanging on for my Dad to go first. I'm also scared of the process- fear, pain and possible failure- which I'm sure would make life MUCH worse.

 

[Kundalini Guy]

I regained my will to live over time after being scammed off N. Just waiting for the time am super suicidal again, I know it will just fail if I do it now.

 

[laylaN]

I've just decided to embrace life and seize the day until I fuck up so badly that suicide (incl. the pain that comes with many methods) is less of a hassle than redeeming myself. It's like an emergency escape button to me at this point

 

[ILuVCkn]

I need to get AE and even then Im scared to do it.

 

[Jeux D'eau]

1. I need to finish my volunteering job.

2. It will destroy my mother.

3. I still kinda like this world, despite its flaws.

4. Every single time I got close, I became extremely terrified by the image of my corpse in the aftermath appearing in my head, and I couldn't follow through, even if suicide seemed completely logical at the moment.

 

[kwho]

I also do worry about being reincarnated. Partly because I could be reincarnated into a worse situation, but partly because I'd have to start all over again without having the knowledge and coping strategies that I've worked hard to develop. But then it's always possible that I won't be reincarnated or will be reincarnated into something better. Or that the world is a simulation and will stop existing after I die.

I've had very similar concerns for a long time. But then, to put it into ordinary terms, another option presented itself in my mind - that the world will have changed by the time i'd be back. And be more suitable to someone like me. Like us. It will be a much more "human-friendly" environment. Partially also due to our efforts.
The last 150 years or so haven't been easy for any real human being to live in. The next 100 or so, might still be pretty much the same or worse. But after that, i distinctly see better prospects.

 

[sadToast]

i feel this! i have the feeling of ctb in the back of my mind always but there are just small things that push me! im in a happy and healthy relationship and i haven't felt loved like this in a long time, not even from family. I want to see the ending of One Piece, i want to see my favorite artists live before they retire. just small things make me want to keep going or even seek recovery sometimes (though i haven't gotten that far…) but it is just enough for me right now.

 

[AllMyDreams]

I've had very similar concerns for a long time. But then, to put it into ordinary terms, another option presented itself in my mind - that the world will have changed by the time i'd be back. And be more suitable to someone like me. Like us. It will be a much more "human-friendly" environment. Partially also due to our efforts.
The last 150 years or so haven't been easy for any real human being to live in. The next 100 or so, might still be pretty much the same or worse. But after that, i distinctly see better prospects.

It's nonetheless a huge risk. At least if you stay longer you'll know what you're getting for longer.

 

[unnormal9]

I'm not ready, I'm ready.

 

[StolenLife]

My University is the only thing that I still try for, but will take long before I graduate, and I want to finish it so that I have a plan B if my ctb fails.

 

[EmmaD]

My University is the only thing that I still try for, but will take long before I graduate, and I want to finish it so that I have a plan B if my ctb fails.

Same. I have a year left on my degree.. I HAVE to finish I've worked so hard. I feel like finishing it then ctb and getting my degree sent to my Dad after I'm gone since it's him who was most disappointed in me.. sort of 'there! Am I good enough yet? Oh well too late' ..