NOISYMIND

NOISYMIND

Everyday I wake up I wanna die again.
Sep 11, 2018
164
My maximum is 3 days in a row so far. Just sleeping, drinking water occasionally, going to the toilet once or twice a day. No eating or taking a shower.

But my stomach will start to hurt like hell due to chronic inflammation so I'll need to get up and eat something. Otherwise I could stay longer. :/
 
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Over n' Out

Over n' Out

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Aug 5, 2018
196
You lose a load of muscle by avoiding gravity. Thats why you feel bad as your liver, kidneys are busy doing that. Plus you lose bone density and strength.
Even if I stay in bed for one day I've got to take a 15 minute shower in the day.
 
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NOISYMIND

NOISYMIND

Everyday I wake up I wanna die again.
Sep 11, 2018
164
You lose a load of muscle by avoiding gravity. Thats why you feel bad as your liver, kidneys are busy doing that. Plus you lose bone density and strength.
Even if I stay in bed for one day I've got to take a 15 minute shower in the day.

Would you eat as well?
 
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Caustic Cardinals

Caustic Cardinals

Enlightened
Sep 1, 2018
1,339
i did't get off my couch for a month i gained 50 pounds and feel great about myself.
The secret to my success ....weed and anime.
 
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NOISYMIND

NOISYMIND

Everyday I wake up I wanna die again.
Sep 11, 2018
164
i did't get off my couch for a month i gained 50 pounds and feel great about myself.
The secret to my success ....weed and anime.

I'm just on my phone while I'm in bed but can't make it more than 3 days :/
 
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Caustic Cardinals

Caustic Cardinals

Enlightened
Sep 1, 2018
1,339
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MachineGunDani

Specialist
Sep 10, 2018
336
I could stay in bed for life lol. With tv of course, wine and weed
 
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RM5998

RM5998

Sack of Meat
Sep 3, 2018
2,202
i did't get off my couch for a month i gained 50 pounds and feel great about myself.
The secret to my success ....weed and anime.

I've done that for the last year. I'm trying to do better now, it's just... hard to get up and go to classes when you don't want to get through the semester alive.

Edit: I didn't have weed. Just a lot of movies and TV shows from different parts of the world.
 
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Deadinside24

Deadinside24

Experienced
Aug 7, 2018
245
When I'd go through drinking binges, it'd be like or 5 days at a time where I'd be in bed most of the day. Get up every now and then to make food or go get more booze but it went by kind of fast.
 
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whatmattersmost

whatmattersmost

Gone to HANG.
Sep 10, 2018
224
You lose a load of muscle by avoiding gravity. Thats why you feel bad as your liver, kidneys are busy doing that. Plus you lose bone density and strength.
Even if I stay in bed for one day I've got to take a 15 minute shower in the day.
I haven't showered in 3weeks.
That's a record for Me.
 
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nuclearsnake

Student
Jul 11, 2018
145
I lose track of time sometimes so I don't know how long I've really stayed. I don't really want to do it but there's not too many options for me - most things involve going outside and moving and people and I tend to lack the energy, willpower and confidence for that.
 
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akosineenee

akosineenee

Invisible idiot
Aug 22, 2018
224
I used to do this a lot in high school. I would lock myself up in my room and stay in bed. No phone, no internet; just books, razors, and the radio. God, I'm too old for my liking. Didn't eat, drink, go to the toilet etc. I couldn't last for more than 3-4 days. I stopped because of my mom.
 
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NOISYMIND

NOISYMIND

Everyday I wake up I wanna die again.
Sep 11, 2018
164
I lose track of time sometimes so I don't know how long I've really stayed. I don't really want to do it but there's not too many options for me - most things involve going outside and moving and people and I tend to lack the energy, willpower and confidence for that.

I understand that too well. And my family doesn't seem care but whatever.
 
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NOISYMIND

NOISYMIND

Everyday I wake up I wanna die again.
Sep 11, 2018
164
I used to do this a lot in high school. I would lock myself up in my room and stay in bed. No phone, no internet; just books, razors, and the radio. God, I'm too old for my liking. Didn't eat, drink, go to the toilet etc. I couldn't last for more than 3-4 days. I stopped because of my mom.

What did she do?
 
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akosineenee

akosineenee

Invisible idiot
Aug 22, 2018
224
What did she do?
I couldn't stand the thought that I was the cause of her mental anguish and eventual breakdown. When it came to my mom I'm particularly uncomplicated to persuade despite everything we went through together.
 
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Okami

Student
Mar 16, 2018
124
Besides getting up to eat and such, I rarely ever get off my bed due to my constant pain. It's been like this for over 2 years.
 
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NOISYMIND

NOISYMIND

Everyday I wake up I wanna die again.
Sep 11, 2018
164
I couldn't stand the thought that I was the cause of her mental anguish and eventual breakdown. When it came to my mom I'm particularly uncomplicated to persuade despite everything we went through together.

Tbh my dad's trying hard to reach me on WhatsApp but I only reply once or twice in the day telling him to leave me alone. I don't want to hurt him and I know it's selfish but I really don't care about anything anymore.
 
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NOISYMIND

NOISYMIND

Everyday I wake up I wanna die again.
Sep 11, 2018
164
Besides getting up to eat and such, I rarely ever get off my bed due to my constant pain. It's been like this for over 2 years.

I'm sorry you have to go through this... May I ask what kind of pain it is?
 
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RM5998

RM5998

Sack of Meat
Sep 3, 2018
2,202
I haven't showered in 3weeks.
That's a record for Me.

For the first semester of my second year, I didn't shower except for this one time that my shirt and shorts got trashed by paint. The semester started in August, and my first bath was in mid October. And then the next one was after the semester ended, in December.

Now it's variable. I hadn't had one for a week, and then there was a patch where I had 3 baths a day for 4 days, and now I haven't had one for 10 days. It's ridiculously easy to get used to not having baths.
 
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akosineenee

akosineenee

Invisible idiot
Aug 22, 2018
224
Tbh my dad's trying hard to reach me on WhatsApp but I only reply once or twice in the day telling him to leave me alone. I don't want to hurt him and I know it's selfish but I really don't care about anything anymore.
I feel your struggle. I've been there. I see that you care about how your situation is affecting your dad. It's your own choice however. Hugs.
 
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Okami

Student
Mar 16, 2018
124
I'm sorry you have to go through this... May I ask what kind of pain it is?

It deals with my stomach and intestines, mostly. The pain increases whenever I eat, and I can't sit-up for long periods.
 
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NOISYMIND

NOISYMIND

Everyday I wake up I wanna die again.
Sep 11, 2018
164
It deals with my stomach and intestines, mostly. The pain increases whenever I eat, and I can't sit-up for long periods.

I've been through a similar situation due to chronic stomach inflammation and GERD. I can deal with it if I eat properly, which is very hard for me to do so lately.

But your case sounds way worse. For over 2 years been such a pain...Jesus. You must be sick of it and the meds (if you do take them).

:(
 
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Midnight

Midnight

Beyond solace
Jun 30, 2018
624
24 hours was my max. I have stuff to do usually ... That or people will come and see what's up long before that usually.
 
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NOISYMIND

NOISYMIND

Everyday I wake up I wanna die again.
Sep 11, 2018
164
For the first semester of my second year, I didn't shower except for this one time that my shirt and shorts got trashed by paint. The semester started in August, and my first bath was in mid October. And then the next one was after the semester ended, in December.

Now it's variable. I hadn't had one for a week, and then there was a patch where I had 3 baths a day for 4 days, and now I haven't had one for 10 days. It's ridiculously easy to get used to not having baths.

I'd start to stink on day 4 or 5 and I really can't stand that for too long so I've got to get up and take a quick shower. I always feel like I'm a loser by doing so :/
 
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NOISYMIND

NOISYMIND

Everyday I wake up I wanna die again.
Sep 11, 2018
164
24 hours was my max. I have stuff to do usually ... That or people will come and see what's up long before that usually.

You have people will check on you regularly? Well it's good that you have other things to do though.
 
Midnight

Midnight

Beyond solace
Jun 30, 2018
624
You have people will check on you regularly? Well it's good that you have other things to do though.

Let's just say they'd be alarmed if i was nowhere to be seen all day. I rent a place with a friend. Having a fulltime job and alot of other obligations indeed help alot. If my mind had enough time to think about suicide i'd be long gone. Now it's just evening and nighttime that are the hardest moments. I often go out at night to be by myself and stay awake for longer than is good for me just so i can be in that state for longer.
 
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medusa

Student
Sep 1, 2018
175
Not long-never really been the depressed type and I've never neglected eating or personal hygiene. It makes me feel disgusting and motivates me to get up
 
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whatmattersmost

whatmattersmost

Gone to HANG.
Sep 10, 2018
224
Not long-never really been the depressed type and I've never neglected eating or personal hygiene. It makes me feel disgusting and motivates me to get up
I feel Disgusting Mentally.
So it is impossible for Me to care what I look like Physically, Anxiety is so bad I can't leave My house.
I want to Shower but I can't find any Motivation to Do so.
 
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Lunar

Lunar

Student
Aug 14, 2018
188
I'm in bed the majority of the time. I guess not having a sofa also makes that easier (the bed is the sofa, I guess). I feel constantly exhausted even on the days I'm sleeping for over ten hours. I don't have anywhere to be and rarely ever leave my flat (panic attacks, agoraphobic). I do an online food shop once a month. That's basically it.
 
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