Myforevercharlie
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- Feb 13, 2020
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20, years ago i got the diagnosis Borderline /depression /anxiety disorder for the first time. It wasn't my best year...
BlackPoppet
Wise woman and Celtic sky person
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Apathy79
Arcanist
- Oct 13, 2019
- 482
I was still at Uni. I met the woman I'd later become engaged to (but not marry). Y2K was the hilarious conspiracy theory of the time - good to see those are back this year. Britney was taking over pop music pre-meltdown. Family Guy was just starting, and only the cool kids knew about it. Property was affordable. We used MSN Messenger to chat, there was no real social media yet (MySpace existed but was a niche nerds thing). Mobile phones were just starting to become mainstream but didn't have internet, laptops were still unusual. I frequently made jokes that would get me arrested now and literally noone cared. I had so many options for the future, it was just a matter of preference. The world seemed like a pretty good place to be.
Oh and the best job you could get was at the video shop, which were mostly still VHS, although they had a few CDs up the front for the rich folk.
Oh and the best job you could get was at the video shop, which were mostly still VHS, although they had a few CDs up the front for the rich folk.
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Myforevercharlie
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Throwawaysoul
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- May 14, 2018
- 605
I was in my twenties. It was the best time of my life. I was embarrassingly draped head to toe in shopped lifted Ecko. The internet was still magical. It was exposing me to all sorts of "underground" music that was fantastic.
I was a small time weed dealer. I also sold anything else I could to make a buck. Bootlegging CDs and VCDs, Cigarettes were easy to import for pennies on the dollar. Air drying bottles of Ketamine. Selling speed I got in the mail. Cheap cheap rent. Tech was expensive. Pounds of dirt weed were cheap and people still bought 3 gram dime bags. Underneath I was still socially awkward and let the drugs do the talking. Instant ice breaker. Girls would sleep with me thinking I was el chapo or something, only to be thoroughly let down in a few weeks. They saw a big wad of cash and never realized that shit was 5's until it was too late. I didn't have a care in the world and I should have because everyone around me were bettering themselves.
I was a small time weed dealer. I also sold anything else I could to make a buck. Bootlegging CDs and VCDs, Cigarettes were easy to import for pennies on the dollar. Air drying bottles of Ketamine. Selling speed I got in the mail. Cheap cheap rent. Tech was expensive. Pounds of dirt weed were cheap and people still bought 3 gram dime bags. Underneath I was still socially awkward and let the drugs do the talking. Instant ice breaker. Girls would sleep with me thinking I was el chapo or something, only to be thoroughly let down in a few weeks. They saw a big wad of cash and never realized that shit was 5's until it was too late. I didn't have a care in the world and I should have because everyone around me were bettering themselves.
Soul
gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
- Apr 12, 2019
- 4,704
I'd spent 1999 in Shanghai, and most of what I remember from 2000 is like struggling to reacclimate to Central Europe. It was like getting the bends. "Where are all the people? Has something happened?" I still get waves of longing for that place, and never feel very much at home in Europe anymore. Ah me ...
nitrogen
Schrödinger's cat
- Nov 5, 2019
- 339
I'm in my early 30s. I don't remember much of my life from the early days, 20 yrs ago or even 10 yrs ago due to brain damage I suffered from acute alcohol poisoning. A lot of the stuff people mention here jogs my memory, but I wouldn't be able to recall all that straight from my memory.
I know back then, I was so sure I was gonna want and live out the life my parents planned for me: study hard, go to an elite university, take over the family business, live a long life with a perfect balance of family & career.
It's like I've never lived those years, yet that doesn't make me feel younger. With anhedonia, numbness, existential depression, functional paralysis, I feel like a 90-year-old "Schrodinger's cat" in a constant daze.
I know back then, I was so sure I was gonna want and live out the life my parents planned for me: study hard, go to an elite university, take over the family business, live a long life with a perfect balance of family & career.
It's like I've never lived those years, yet that doesn't make me feel younger. With anhedonia, numbness, existential depression, functional paralysis, I feel like a 90-year-old "Schrodinger's cat" in a constant daze.
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Wasn't that the year of the total eclipse? I was digging up a Roman Villa during the eclipse. Actually I was meant to be supervising it but I was drunk on gin and tonic by 8am just in case the world ended.
That year I'd stopped being and archaeologist and started work on a newspaper. I was moving up in the world and could for the first time in my life afford a car and a place in the nice part of town.
I did, however, spend most of my time drunk. And yes, that includes at work. In those days journalists went to the pub every lunchtime.
That year I'd stopped being and archaeologist and started work on a newspaper. I was moving up in the world and could for the first time in my life afford a car and a place in the nice part of town.
I did, however, spend most of my time drunk. And yes, that includes at work. In those days journalists went to the pub every lunchtime.
Fuck, everyone did drugs or got drunk then. I was high by 9, then a bump of yay at lunch to get me through. At 5, it was off to the bar or party or whatever.
Oyoy
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- Feb 2, 2020
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waived
I am a sunrise
- Jan 5, 2019
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itsamadworld
i wanna die somewhere like up there
- Mar 15, 2020
- 410
I was 17 in 1998, still in highschool. I (female) enlisted in the army alongside my homosexual best friend. Went to basic training between my junior and senior year. In 1999, Bill Clinton was president, and the military policy for gays was "don't ask, don't tell." My friend who's gay, got out of the military out of fear he might be exposed. I have BPD, which I keep hidden, and had several suicide attempts ( which would have gotten me discharged from the military)but managed to hide my medical records to get deployed. It turned out to saving my life, paradoxically. And I did well, because I wasn't afraid to die! Lol...I also drove trucks! I picked the most dangerous occupation I could! Haha In 1999- my senior year, the first major school shooting happened at Columbine in Colorado. I lived in a northern, Midwestern state, but I had another friend who pranked in a fake bomb threat from a 'PAY-phone' You don't see those around anymore! He got in some deep shit! In 2001, 9/11 happened. It was 2003 ( I was 23 ) when I got deployed to the middle east, which I totally enjoyed ( becuz the dreams in which I'm dying are the best I ever had!). Women were not allowed in infantry at that time, just as gays had to stay in the closet. All that has changed now in the USA...I'm speaking. So things were different, and those times still sucked like shit does today! Just a different kinda suck! Imo. :)
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itsamadworld
i wanna die somewhere like up there
- Mar 15, 2020
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Yes. You in the military?
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Yes. We're you in the military?
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Myforevercharlie
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Let me start over... The "zero's" i lived in Amsterdam, in anti squaters homes, with my 2 male roomies. The time of gothic party"s, haha, i wore dresses i couldn't even put on alone :) i was a doorgirl at punk party's, never had any money ( nothings changed), but looking back, it were happy days. Freedom, friends, and total misery. But happy nonetheless.
Life seemed less complicated compared to now.
I had a cellphone, so massive, it looked like a shaving machine, there where paper strips to use in the subway or tram you had to stamp in a machine, iCQ and MSN were still around, just like big chat sites. Paying cash everywhere was still normal....
I sometimes still miss those days
Life seemed less complicated compared to now.
I had a cellphone, so massive, it looked like a shaving machine, there where paper strips to use in the subway or tram you had to stamp in a machine, iCQ and MSN were still around, just like big chat sites. Paying cash everywhere was still normal....
I sometimes still miss those days
terry_a_davis
Warlock
- Dec 28, 2019
- 707
2000 i was in my mid 20s, it was a very happy time i was so lucky and didn't realise and thus appreciate it. I got serious with a great girl. Had fun times with a really good friend just hanging around getting drunk, driving around for hours, clubbing, meeting new people. Had a good part time job. Was in good physical shape. Mentally healthy but a bit selfish in some ways.
My brother was in a much better place. I wasn't stuck indoors most of the time like i am now. Wasn't online much, used to online voice chat using roger wilko and play an fps game with friends. Had a mobile phone (nokia maybe) where you could easily replace the front with different colours. I recall texting being free for a time and i used to bombard mates with idiotic texts, would also sneak their phones away and text random strangers silly things. Money was much tighter.
I was starting to think nearly everyone's lives gets worse the older you get judging by the comments here but then i remembered where i am!
My brother was in a much better place. I wasn't stuck indoors most of the time like i am now. Wasn't online much, used to online voice chat using roger wilko and play an fps game with friends. Had a mobile phone (nokia maybe) where you could easily replace the front with different colours. I recall texting being free for a time and i used to bombard mates with idiotic texts, would also sneak their phones away and text random strangers silly things. Money was much tighter.
I was starting to think nearly everyone's lives gets worse the older you get judging by the comments here but then i remembered where i am!
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ICQ... right, that was a chat program. I had completely forgotten about that.
Cool memories!
Did you use to go to metal festivals as well? Such as Wacken, perhaps? Wacken was one of those places where you could see the most amazing gothic apparell.
Myforevercharlie
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Wacken is always sold out. I went to With Full Force. Summerbreeze, Graspop... Still do if i have enough money. It's insanely expensive nowadays....
Do you know/remember the German Nuclear Blast catalogues? I wish I had saved one of them - they were so nice. You had your CDs, your band merch, your accessories and your Gothic clothing. I was more the black jeans and Emperor t-shirt type, but I had girlfriends who dressed up.
I tell you, there's few things that make my heart skip a beat the same way as seeing a "trve" metal head walking down the street.
Myforevercharlie
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- Feb 13, 2020
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I remember! They we're awesome!!
Mwahaha, yeah me to. I think i haven't changed much, bit heavier, more lines in my face.. But hey!
I have changed quite a bit. There came a point in my life when wearing Cradle of Filth t-shirts didn't really fit in with my "image" as a respectable citizen.
But I am glad to hear someone is still carrying the torch. \m/
Oyoy
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BlackPoppet
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Oyoy
Spatula
- Feb 2, 2020
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They were hand dryers.
Once upon a time!
How frustrating when they got stuck and you would keep pulling and pulling, until you ended up with a long "beach towell" on the floor, and felt bad about the whole thing and just wished you had dried your hands on your trousers and got on with your life.
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LuzurPhagget
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BlackPoppet
Wise woman and Celtic sky person
- Mar 7, 2020
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My neighbours friend works on Time team sometimes.
