nopointofliving
Warrior
- Apr 19, 2021
- 513
Many memories hit me back.
I remember when I was crying loud being extremely afraid and begging him to stay with me for a while. He denied amd left. I thought he would fight for me. I thought I was so much important person whom he couldn't give up on. I was extremely wrong.
I'm alone here, facing the darkness that I put myself into. He broke me into pieces. Yet, he lives his life like nothing happened. I'm extremely hurt. I can't wish him any harm because I still love him so bad. But he doesn't deserve this love. I want to get out of his memories cycle , I just can't. I can't. I'm trapped.
I just want to work hard for some time ,so I can get the materials or find a better method for a peaceful exit. Thinking of leaving soon gives me some relief and some energy. I can't imagine I'm going to live till my 50s or 60s. I can't make till that time.
I'm going to sleep now. I hope I never wake up again.
I remember when I was crying loud being extremely afraid and begging him to stay with me for a while. He denied amd left. I thought he would fight for me. I thought I was so much important person whom he couldn't give up on. I was extremely wrong.
I'm alone here, facing the darkness that I put myself into. He broke me into pieces. Yet, he lives his life like nothing happened. I'm extremely hurt. I can't wish him any harm because I still love him so bad. But he doesn't deserve this love. I want to get out of his memories cycle , I just can't. I can't. I'm trapped.
I just want to work hard for some time ,so I can get the materials or find a better method for a peaceful exit. Thinking of leaving soon gives me some relief and some energy. I can't imagine I'm going to live till my 50s or 60s. I can't make till that time.
I'm going to sleep now. I hope I never wake up again.
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