sleeplessboyinbed
Some guy
- Mar 26, 2026
- 4
Hello, SaSu! It's my first post on here. I hope im welcome :). I have been lurking on this cite for about a year or so, but only had the courage to make an account recently. Sorry for my English, it's my second language 8-). Im really grateful that this place exists and i get to interact with like-minded people!
Im going to introduce myself now :D.
I have been suicidal for most of my life. It started at 12 or 13 and never stopped. I think it became even more stronger, the desire to not exist. I even had multiple attempts, one of them scared me so much i can't even make another one. I tried partial hanging, as you can see i failed. But i hope this fear will pass and im not here for long :P.
I don't have work and still live with my mom, im not in school. Yeah im a loser :'). I want to die because im trans (trans man, he/him). Still closeted and can't really do anything about it. At least im not in the US. But it's still bad in my country. Even if i had basic rights i wouldn't want to live tbh. Now i will be speaking strictly for myself. I don't think it's worth living to me as a trans person. It's just not what i want. I want to be a cis man. I don't want to worry about my gender all my life. Plus im just a weird guy. Because of that I even get scared, that if i start to transition they won't let me because im so different. This only applies to myself and i don't think other trans people are not enough. Im just an exhausted coward who can't even go out of his home :((.
Sorry for writing so much, i hope it wasn't difficult to understand me!
Im going to introduce myself now :D.
I have been suicidal for most of my life. It started at 12 or 13 and never stopped. I think it became even more stronger, the desire to not exist. I even had multiple attempts, one of them scared me so much i can't even make another one. I tried partial hanging, as you can see i failed. But i hope this fear will pass and im not here for long :P.
I don't have work and still live with my mom, im not in school. Yeah im a loser :'). I want to die because im trans (trans man, he/him). Still closeted and can't really do anything about it. At least im not in the US. But it's still bad in my country. Even if i had basic rights i wouldn't want to live tbh. Now i will be speaking strictly for myself. I don't think it's worth living to me as a trans person. It's just not what i want. I want to be a cis man. I don't want to worry about my gender all my life. Plus im just a weird guy. Because of that I even get scared, that if i start to transition they won't let me because im so different. This only applies to myself and i don't think other trans people are not enough. Im just an exhausted coward who can't even go out of his home :((.
Sorry for writing so much, i hope it wasn't difficult to understand me!
