First dream of CTB w/ nembutal

[Empty RN]

Do others/ have others dreamt of CTB?

I dreamt I was with four other people and we were all going to drink N. There was a guy there helping us, giving us water, a sweet drink and encouraging us. I took a ton of cough syrup(not sure why) and the antiemetics. I grabbed the bottle of N and noticed the others around me had already opened theirs and were drinking it. The guy administering everything handed me a cup of almond milk, took the N bottle and we started having sex. I remember feeling very tired but I never did get to finish the N- all 3 of my partners did though and passed on.

I woke up wishing I were back in the moment and had finished the N, not woken up.

 

[dartanian]

how was the sex?

 

[worldexploder]

I had a weird dream recently about driving a car over the bridge. I could hear beer cans crinkling as I feel closer to the ground. Then I woke up.

I also had a dream around the same to were I was was on a train on a super tall bridge in China. I looked down and felt I'll. Couldn't do it.

 

[Empty RN]

It was really good- but not sure why it showed up in my dream at that moment

 

[Empty RN]

I had a weird dream recently about driving a car over the bridge. I could hear beer cans crinkling as I feel closer to the ground. Then I woke up.

beer cans crinkling in your car or that you were running over?

 

[worldexploder]

beer cans crinkling in your car or that you were running over?

In my dream the beer cans were crinkling as the car was in free fall. Like the beer cans were everywhere.

 

[dartanian]

It was really good- but not sure why it showed up in my dream at that moment

you don't need to have a reason to have sex

 

[Empty RN]

In my dream the beer cans were crinkling as the car was in free fall. Like the beer cans were everywhere.

That's odd, do you drink a lot of beer? It's so strange what our mind comes up with when we're dreaming

 

[worldexploder]

That's odd, do you drink a lot of beer? It's so strange what our mind comes up with when we're dreaming

I do drink a lot but try my best to go days at a time without. Yes dreams can be fascinating.

 

[Empty RN]

you don't need to have a reason to have sex

You're very right. It just felt like finally my anticipation of ending life was coming and then all of a sudden great sex and I never finished my goal while everyone around me did

 

[dartanian]

You're very right. It just felt like finally my anticipation of ending life was coming and then all of a sudden great sex and I never finished my goal while everyone around me did

when you have great sex you can be sure you achieved the goal.
also think about it like that- everybody died and you got to f*uck the assistant. you won the game.

 

[Made4TV]

Most people are horny when they're asleep I feel like.

 

[bigj75]

Do others/ have others dreamt of CTB?

I dreamt I was with four other people and we were all going to drink N. There was a guy there helping us, giving us water, a sweet drink and encouraging us. I took a ton of cough syrup(not sure why) and the antiemetics. I grabbed the bottle of N and noticed the others around me had already opened theirs and were drinking it. The guy administering everything handed me a cup of almond milk, took the N bottle and we started having sex. I remember feeling very tired but I never did get to finish the N- all 3 of my partners did though and passed on.

I woke up wishing I were back in the moment and had finished the N, not woken up.

 

[Empty RN]

when you have great sex you can be sure you achieved the goal.
also think about it like that- everybody died and you got to f*uck the assistant. you won the game.

Lol as if it were a game. I'm tired of waking up all the time to more emptiness.

 

[Dog Food]

I had a dream I committed suicide by throwing myself under a wheel of a covered wagon from playing too much Oregon Trail in 5th grade. Other than that, I don't really remember my dreams.

 

[Help_Me]

I was always dreaming of falling from height, since my childhood. I told dozens of psychiatrists about that, they said there is nothing to fear of and I'm not suicidal. Well, they were mistaken, cause I want badly to kill myself.)

 

[bigj75]

I was always dreaming of falling from height, since my childhood. I told dozens of psychiatrists about that, they said there is nothing to fear of and I'm not suicidal. Well, they were mistaken, cause I want badly to kill myself.)

I've had those falling dreams before.

 

[TAW122]

I once had a dream where I ctb'd with a firearm. I was fighting for my life against people who are out to hurt me and I managed to kill some of the aggressors and attackers (both with knives and firearms), then when I knew I couldn't win the fight, was badly injured, fearing that I'd die to some enemy, I fought until I had some reprieve, then decided "fuck it" and ended it there. I later woke up after I've died in the dream of what seemed like an eternity.

 

[Empty RN]

I had a dream I committed suicide by throwing myself under a wheel of a covered wagon from playing too much Oregon Trail in 5th grade. Other than that, I don't really remember my dreams.

Do you mean you were in 5th grade when you had the dream?

 

[nztphill]

what a bunch of kids here...never dreams...dreams never come true...its just a trap of the life

 

[Shewaitsforme]

what a bunch of kids here...never dreams...dreams never come true...its just a trap of the life

Do you do drugs?

 

[nztphill]

Do you do drugs?

No

 

[nztphill]

Do you do drugs?

Do you do drugs?

i'm just in very severe pain...im too dumb...to think right now...my entire body...burning,i can t relax

 

[LoveKills]

nice dream

 

[nztphill]

nice dream

i see dreams what a wonderful world!!!

 

[TheLastTrip]

If you ever find yourself in Peru remind me to pick up some almond milk before you arrive, lol.

 

[Karl]

I still did not dream that I did ctb but several times I was persecuted and murdered or killed in a bar fight
I like these dreams. every day more often involving death in them, sometimes of other people

 

[TheLastTrip]

I've had dreams where I woke up convinced that I'd lost my job and my life was in ruins, or that family members were dead etc, only realising like 60 seconds after getting up it was not real, but never a dream about ctb. I kind of wish if I did that my brain would just auto shutdown because it knew that was the plan, now that would be cool.

 

[nztphill]

II remember when i was in teenage moments of my life,coming at home after the night club it happened to have heart attack on the street...wow that feeling was something can't describe...just drop on the gound,the sounds around was going deeper and smoothly ...you can't breathe...in your mind its one thing...I'm Fucked Up...people around...anyone call the ambulance...one men approach...no more need,he is done...i was like wtf...fews seconds later my breath start again...i think that was a good way to end up

 

[angie]

Do others/ have others dreamt of CTB?

I dreamt I was with four other people and we were all going to drink N. There was a guy there helping us, giving us water, a sweet drink and encouraging us. I took a ton of cough syrup(not sure why) and the antiemetics. I grabbed the bottle of N and noticed the others around me had already opened theirs and were drinking it. The guy administering everything handed me a cup of almond milk, took the N bottle and we started having sex. I remember feeling very tired but I never did get to finish the N- all 3 of my partners did though and passed on.

I woke up wishing I were back in the moment and had finished the N, not woken up.

i love the idea of being with others to help you ctb ,that would be brilliant ,but as for the sex bit forget it , id be there to ctb and ctb only ..
id love someone to sit with me though if only .