Finally tried practicing partial just before.

[RedBuns]

All I felt was blood rushing to my head and a bit of noise blur (my tv was on). And now it just feels like I got choked out. Clearly this is going to take a few tries.. Maybe it's the ligature i'm using? (Hand wraps for boxing) ugh.. I hate my life

Also, what happened to the partial megathread? I cannot seem to find it :(

 

[SelfishMom]

Today I experimented with a necktie but didn't even feel a rush or anything. I think it's my fat neck. I did get a headache though.

 

[RedBuns]

Today I experimented with a necktie but didn't even feel a rush or anything. I think it's my fat neck. I did get a headache though.

I guess we need more practice..

 

[ThinkingAboutThis]

I experimented with elastic compression bandages (two of them). Felt awful. I pulled them off and up above my head very quickly. I felt dizzy for a while, and I felt kind of pathetic doing what I was doing. It's hard to overcome the programmed survival instinct. Really hard.

 

[RedBuns]

I experimented with elastic compression bandages (two of them). Felt awful. I pulled them off and up above my head very quickly. I felt dizzy for a while, and I felt kind of pathetic doing what I was doing. It's hard to overcome the programmed survival instinct. Really hard.

Yes, especially with a method like partial, SI must be very hard to overcome. So jealous of people who know how to do it right and are just waiting for the time to come to ctb.

 

[ThinkingAboutThis]

I spent the last 4 years trying very hard to survive. I feel that the effort to survive against all odds has actually strengthened my survival instinct. I honestly feel like an injured animal that is trying to survive at all costs.

 

[ThinkingAboutThis]

Yes, especially with a method like partial, SI must be very hard to overcome. So jealous of people who know how to do it right and are just waiting for the time to come to ctb.

I wonder if people that know how to do it may just get to the point where they'd given up 100%. I feel that one has to be 100% certain in order to ctb. If 90% certain, that 10% will certainly play a big part in hesitation.

 

[RedBuns]

I spent the last 4 years trying very hard to survive. I feel that the effort to survive against all odds has actually strengthened my survival instinct. I honestly feel like an injured animal that is trying to survive at all costs.

I completely understand how you feel. I'm doing the bare minimum just to "survive" each day, and for what? Just to live a life of misery and shit? Screw that. I need to go as soon as i can.

I wonder if people that know how to do it may just get to the point where they'd given up 100%. I feel that one has to be 100% certain in order to ctb. If 90% certain, that 10% will certainly play a big part in hesitation.

That makes complete sense. That's probably why a lot (most, imo) people fail to ctb. There's just that tiny sliver of hope still inside of them. I feel like you can be 99.99% sure you want to die, but that tiny .01% will fuck you over.

 

[ThinkingAboutThis]

I completely understand how you feel. I'm doing the bare minimum just to "survive" each day, and for what? Just to live a life of misery and shit? Screw that. I need to go as soon as i can.



That makes complete sense. That's probably why a lot (most, imo) people fail to ctb. There's just that tiny sliver of hope still inside of them. I feel like you can be 99.99% sure you want to die, but that tiny .01% will fuck you over.

Yes. I think the sliver of hope and the fear of failure would be the two biggest deterrents. The sheer embarrassment of waking up alive in a hospital while I am not able to speak, walk, talk. Scares me, honestly.

 

[bigj75]

Try the night night method!

 

[RedBuns]

Try the night night method!

I honestly don't quite understand that method. Like you basically suffocate yourself with pillows somehow? I don't really see that as a peaceful method at all lol

 

[bigj75]

I honestly don't quite understand that method. Like you basically suffocate yourself with pillows somehow? I don't really see that as a peaceful method at all lol

No. It's basically a modified partial suspension.