notevenhere
Ghost Angel
- Apr 27, 2023
- 122
my day has been shit, my neurologist looks at me with disdain in her eyes, doctors don't actually ever try to help you, even when you're fucking disabled and an invalid, doctors don't care about making you better, they don't, they get into the profession to help, sure, I know pro mental health activities in psychology majors but other than that? they're always just put to get me, they stigmatize your mental illness, you're just another client they have to write scripts, too, the healthcare in the Philippines is a joke — it's r/bpdlovedones as a country, I get talked down to like.i am actually retarded because that's how they see me with my cervical dystonia and Tourette's and lazy eye, Seroquel made me fat and I am unsightly to the eyes, I'm genuinely a freak and I don't mean that to sound edgy or dark or unique, I'm a horrible person with fucked up trauma and I do fucked up things so I need to die* getting better makes no sense to me anymore, it won't make me happy, I've been dead since 2023,
I opened up to my neuro about my struggles— unemployed, poor and mentally ill, all I was getting my meds refilled but she didn't care about any of my worries, She just wanted to get rid of me, She doesn't want to help, Neurologists are seriously so cruel to anyone with mental illness when they have to work with Psychiatrists when it's a mental and neuro disorder, I miss my old neuro and shrink back in LPC, I could tell they mean well, There's eye doctors who's help you, really help you and know you're struggling, you can see the kindness in their eyes and there's bad eggs who acts like car mechanics who scams you because you don't know anything about cars, I was told I'd go blind in 5 years, it's been two years, I was so frightened — she told me.ro have 50k ready for the operation and I didn't have the money and she just have given me the wrong measurements to my glasses, the kind doctor on the other hand: asked me what my diet was, asked if I was sleeping right, to always take eye drops before work because I'm on the computer eight hours a day and just look at the window to exercise your eyes, the same goes for dentists, you can tell when one is passionate about saving people. and not scummy, my dentist didn't judge me for taking benzos and having am eating disorder; meanwhile the one here at Cavite would fucking gossip like I'm not in the room and say the most unprofessional and uncomfortable shit ever.
I hate people in medicine, they're supposed to help you, I kept pushing for meto but they wouldn't give me an anti emetic even if I said biperiden does genuinely make me.throw up after a meal because of the side effects,
She also always fucking talks to my mom than me, eye contact with my mom when I can speak for myself, This goes for security guards in mental hospitals, like NCMH, whether it's bipolar or borderline or schizophrenia — we are all just the same kinda of skeletons when people in a million years dig us up, this country is a joke,
No rights for queer people or maeginiloed groups, no healthcare insurance for teeth, female reproduction or eyes— FUCKING NOTHING, this system is corrupt. The poor gets poorer and the politicians gets richer, worse of all? the one in poverty don't know any better,
I'm sick of this and I want our, I really fucking thought I finally got meto, fuck prepazom.
The system will fail you, only your body has value, you have to attract sick rich pedophiles and abusers to even get money, the world is designed to make you evil, nobody wants the best for youz They look after themselves, no one wants to help anymore and you'll always be by yourself
no one will.help me.but means I'm.not.stdomh enough to.nelp.me
especially since my mom.will. never stop.wantimg to.trap me.and see me.me suffer some sort of mainxhausen by proxy bullshit
here's the METO!!!
update: someone commented its an anti-acid. NOT meto. or any of the listed anti emetic on the SN bible.
I opened up to my neuro about my struggles— unemployed, poor and mentally ill, all I was getting my meds refilled but she didn't care about any of my worries, She just wanted to get rid of me, She doesn't want to help, Neurologists are seriously so cruel to anyone with mental illness when they have to work with Psychiatrists when it's a mental and neuro disorder, I miss my old neuro and shrink back in LPC, I could tell they mean well, There's eye doctors who's help you, really help you and know you're struggling, you can see the kindness in their eyes and there's bad eggs who acts like car mechanics who scams you because you don't know anything about cars, I was told I'd go blind in 5 years, it's been two years, I was so frightened — she told me.ro have 50k ready for the operation and I didn't have the money and she just have given me the wrong measurements to my glasses, the kind doctor on the other hand: asked me what my diet was, asked if I was sleeping right, to always take eye drops before work because I'm on the computer eight hours a day and just look at the window to exercise your eyes, the same goes for dentists, you can tell when one is passionate about saving people. and not scummy, my dentist didn't judge me for taking benzos and having am eating disorder; meanwhile the one here at Cavite would fucking gossip like I'm not in the room and say the most unprofessional and uncomfortable shit ever.
I hate people in medicine, they're supposed to help you, I kept pushing for meto but they wouldn't give me an anti emetic even if I said biperiden does genuinely make me.throw up after a meal because of the side effects,
She also always fucking talks to my mom than me, eye contact with my mom when I can speak for myself, This goes for security guards in mental hospitals, like NCMH, whether it's bipolar or borderline or schizophrenia — we are all just the same kinda of skeletons when people in a million years dig us up, this country is a joke,
No rights for queer people or maeginiloed groups, no healthcare insurance for teeth, female reproduction or eyes— FUCKING NOTHING, this system is corrupt. The poor gets poorer and the politicians gets richer, worse of all? the one in poverty don't know any better,
I'm sick of this and I want our, I really fucking thought I finally got meto, fuck prepazom.
The system will fail you, only your body has value, you have to attract sick rich pedophiles and abusers to even get money, the world is designed to make you evil, nobody wants the best for youz They look after themselves, no one wants to help anymore and you'll always be by yourself
no one will.help me.but means I'm.not.stdomh enough to.nelp.me
especially since my mom.will. never stop.wantimg to.trap me.and see me.me suffer some sort of mainxhausen by proxy bullshit
here's the METO!!!
update: someone commented its an anti-acid. NOT meto. or any of the listed anti emetic on the SN bible.
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