I went into a gun store and bought a new handgun. I got a Sw mp shield 9mm. I also bought Hornady critical duty ammo.
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I dont mind sharing. The box of ammo has 25 and I only need one
wow, not that easy in the uk. never even seen a gun. there is the black market but not too sure about that one.
I was positive that I would feel so much relief once I had the gun because I had my way out. Now I'm more scared and nervous
Yes but I'm nervous for some reason
littlelady774
running on empty
- Dec 20, 2018
- 708
Before my first few attempts I was pretty nervous too.
It's that pesky survival instinct
It's natural to be nervous when going through this it can really work on the nerves it sucks to get to this point with life
dandan
One more attempt on life.
- Feb 18, 2019
- 1,298
That's how I felt when I started setting up the nitrogen system , the bed setup , etc... Yeah I got nervous then..
You got a gun now,
If things get ugly,
....
You can always decide differently o anything, maybe not gun , maybe N?
You got a gun now,
If things get ugly,
....
You can always decide differently o anything, maybe not gun , maybe N?
Soul
gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
- Apr 12, 2019
- 4,704
You can do what you want now - you're prepared and you have a choice. There's no need to rush things if you don't feel ready.
GinaIsReady
Exit Strategist
- Mar 29, 2019
- 995
Maybe the reality of what you are going to do is setting in. Maybe you just remembered all the stuff you still need to do before you're ready. Maybe it's survival instinct. Whatever is driving the anxiety, it's normal.
How did you select that handgun? I looked up the price (at www.gunwatcher.com ) and I see that a S&W Shield goes for $85 more than a Maverick 88 (12 gauge 18.5" barrel) which would be vastly more powerful.
Back in 2016 I bought a short-barreled shotgun just in case I ever needed it. I saw my father die a slow death in home hospice care and always thought that he would have been better off if he had ended his life with a shotgun. I too am very nervous, knowing that I must CTB yet being unable to make that happen. SI is real bitch.
Back in 2016 I bought a short-barreled shotgun just in case I ever needed it. I saw my father die a slow death in home hospice care and always thought that he would have been better off if he had ended his life with a shotgun. I too am very nervous, knowing that I must CTB yet being unable to make that happen. SI is real bitch.
I got it because I researched a lot. To be more successful with a handgun it should be at least a 9mm and the shield has great reviews and is great for people with little to no experience with guns.
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