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kk13

Student
Feb 2, 2026
106
I feel like if this attempt doesn't work nothing ever will. Ill have to jump or maybe i just wont get out of bed forever.
Ive got the noose around my neck now i just have to tie the end to the anchor point. Then i guess thats it.
Its so scary. That i have to go like this. Theres so much i want to see want to do. I know if i stay alive ill never be able to do them. Ill die rather than live like this.
Where did i even go wrong. When i think stuff like that it all comes back to me. Its not the situation or the environment. Its me. I drove myself to my death.
I cant think of a single memory to think of in my final moments. Maybe once i go itll be different.
Its digging into my neck i have to do it sooner or later. I hope i never post on here again
 
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Zyntkalla

Zyntkalla

Welcome to hell on Earth
Aug 28, 2020
213
I find it never easy to do it when you know you will never experience life again.😓
 
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kk13

Student
Feb 2, 2026
106
I feel like if this attempt doesn't work nothing ever will. Ill have to jump or maybe i just wont get out of bed forever.
Ive got the noose around my neck now i just have to tie the end to the anchor point. Then i guess thats it.
Its so scary. That i have to go like this. Theres so much i want to see want to do. I know if i stay alive ill never be able to do them. Ill die rather than live like this.
Where did i even go wrong. When i think stuff like that it all comes back to me. Its not the situation or the environment. Its me. I drove myself to my death.
I cant think of a single memory to think of in my final moments. Maybe once i go itll be different.
Its digging into my neck i have to do it sooner or later. I hope i never post on here again
I hope this one works please god i cant take another failed attempt anymore.
 
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Abyss Dweller

Abyss Dweller

You look lonely...
Jul 29, 2025
137
May I ask what drove you to this point? I really hope you give life another shot.
 
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fishperson

fishperson

If only luck was by my side
Jan 22, 2026
417
We are with u fren. Hope whatever happens u get to find peace
 

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