Final Moments

[sadbunny]

How do you think your final moments will go as you pass from life to death? (This may exclude anyone who is using a gun)
Are you going to cuddle with a blanket or a pillow?

I'm so scared of what it's going to look like for me as I wait for time to pass by (using SN)..I'm a pretty dramatic person and I hate being alone

being filled with regret will be the absolute worst

wish me luck, waiting another week

 

[not_a_robot]

People who recover from heroin od often say the last thing they remember was the most beautiful peaceful feeling they ever had, then nothing. I need that.
Otherwise I just hope to be pretty stoned and glad to go.

 

[cornflowerblue]

I'll be filled with immense guilt and also worrying that I'll fail, then I'll fall asleep without noticing.

 

[lovemelovemenot]

I'm narrowing down on the same method. I want to buy a tent and find a secluded, but beautiful area in the forest to appreciate a bit before I go. Then I'd retreat into my tent, put on a small queue of songs and snuggle under a bunch of blankets after taking the mixture. Sometimes when I think about it my stomach turns, but overall I feel calm and am hoping it's peaceful and effective.

Goodluck with your decision, I hope you find what you're seeking

 

[JoeFailure]

Regret. Probably not regret that I'm doing it, but for what my life ended up being, and knowing what it could have been if I had Adderall about a decade ago.

 

[Dreamcolleger]

Time to put on a brave face. I don't have much if anything to lose so it might make it easier than some.

 

[Life+me=error]

I hope i die with someone but if that is not possible I will simpliy lay in bed and wait for the drug to knock me out. I won't be doing anything special.

 

[Maksimka Ai]

I have no one else to hug except a blanket or a pillow, this pacifies me a little. But I want to do this by the sea, listening to the waves, and feeling the wind

 

[Dead beat dad]

How do you think your final moments will go as you pass from life to death? (This may exclude anyone who is using a gun)
Are you going to cuddle with a blanket or a pillow?

I'm so scared of what it's going to look like for me as I wait for time to pass by (using SN)..I'm a pretty dramatic person and I hate being alone

being filled with regret will be the absolute worst

wish me luck, waiting another week

I think the sad reality is that the last 'aware' moments will be filled with fear and pain, it is just that this fear and pain in death will be eclipsed by the fear and pain of living, which once you find acceptance will hopefully be replaced by calm and peace.
I love the idea of taking the N or SN or whatever and then just crawling in to our safe, cozy place and drifting away to peaceful external sleep, free from pain and suffering.
Part of me knows this is not going to happen and that adds strength the SI.
I am sorry about your fears friend and the suffering that has blighted your life and led you to this place.
Despite all of the things I've just said and however your journey progresses I honestly and sincerely wish you peace and an end to your suffering.
Good luck friend
DBD

 

[Jen0804]

I think I relate to every post on this thread so far.. I'll be feeling all these things