Fentanyl vs N (ready to go...)

[transgenderfailure]

Hi everyone,

I am ready to go. I printed my suicide notes. And I am ready to book a hotel room to spend my last days. But, I still have some concerns.

Currently have more than enough Fentanyl powder to kill me (approximately 500mg to 1000mg).

My way of going would be by snorting as much Fentanyl as I can get in (never snorted anything before, so kinda anxious about it).

IV is not an option, cause I'd probably mess that up. I am not sure if mixing it into water and drinking it like that would be a good idea (I'd prefer this though over everything else cause it's so easy)


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Guys, I am really afraid of Fentanyl not giving me a peaceful death like drinking N could.

My concerns with snorting Fentanyl are:

• Will I pass out before having feelings of suffocation?
• Do I need benzodiazepines to fall asleep beforehand?
• Do I need to take antiemetics even when snorting?
• Do I need to make warning signs around my body for the hotel workers cause Fentanyl is so deadly?

I really want to know if attempting with Fentanyl would achieve a peaceful passing like N's A could give me.

And if so, why aren't more people considering Fentanyl instead of N? What's the reason Fentanyl is barely discussed?

Sorry for spamming this forum about Fentanyl, I read the PPeH but unfortunately I am still left with these questions eating my brain.

Thank you in advance.

 

[spanishguy22]

Fentanyl is way harder to get and also more illegal as it's a hardcore drug. Sorry can't advise you there.

 

[InkBlot]

Ive heard of EMTs dying from fent residue on a patient, and ODing from just touching it. Its probably gonna function like Heroin, you'll nod out and be blissful as you fall asleep and you stop breathing. Leave notes to whoever finds you, fent is dangerous. Jealous you have that on hand though.

Fent is way harder to acquire and trust to be pure. Its crazy illegal and dangerous too. N comes from A and we know what it is. Its fairly safe unless you drink it.

 

[chrijo]

• Will I pass out before having feelings of suffocation?
• Do I need benzodiazepines to fall asleep beforehand?
• Do I need to take antiemetics even when snorting?
• Do I need to make warning signs around my body for the hotel workers cause Fentanyl is so deadly?

You'll fly high before you pass out, fentanyl causes respiratory depression and has a strong sedative effect, especially in this dosage. You will stop breathing while you sleep and you don't even notice anything. Benzodiazepines and alcohol reinforce the respiratory effect.

You will most likely vomit but what is not in your stomach cannot be vomited. The mucous membranes in the nose absorb only a limited amount. Everything else runs down pharyngal and will be swallowed, tastes disgusting. In this case, 60-70% fentanyl that you swallow will be eliminated by first-pass-effect. That's why intravenous is always preferable. You can also use the anal mucous membranes.

 

[fisil]

No need snort it. You can rub it inside your gums. You pass out after that and you stop breathing. The good thing with fentanyl is that you don't have shitty taste to deal with. I think there is a reason why exit and dignitas prefer N over fentanyl.

 

[JadedGray]

N because you never know what to expect with Fentanyl it might not be pure and you could have a long drawn out overdose.

 

[alizee]

You can order fentanyl test strips online. It's definitely deadly & easy to overdose on and I cannot imagine or write much of what kind of high you get on it. Viewing what is written about the high on reddit makes me think it's an interesting experience. It used to be really easy to get ahold of this drug online two years ago. I was considering it back then but didn't think it would be gone today and so I never ordered it.

 

[Sick Boy]

That´s what worries me about the fentanyl,what if i start vomiting or having severe stomach pain and the noise alerts the hotel staff,and i ended up being "rescued"

 

[alizee]

That´s what worries me about the fentanyl,what if i start vomiting or having severe stomach pain and the noise alerts the hotel staff,and i ended up being "rescued"

Fentanyl isn't a drug you can vomit because you have it enter your blood stream by injection, snorting or even through the gums as suggested already.

 

[LadyAbandon]

My concerns with snorting Fentanyl are:

• Will I pass out before having feelings of suffocation?
• Do I need benzodiazepines to fall asleep beforehand?
• Do I need to take antiemetics even when snorting?
• Do I need to make warning signs around my body for the hotel workers cause Fentanyl is so deadly?

So fentanyl absolutely can be as peaceful as it comes and would be my #1 preferred method if I had a reliable source right now. (Feel free to PM if you want to help a sister out.) I have a long history of opioid use and I can assure you from experience that opioid overdose feels like drifting off into dreams if gradual, and just going out like a light if not, but it's painless and there's no feeling of suffocation. If you have any awareness at all, you just feel like you don't NEED to breathe anymore.

500 to 1000 mg is WAY more than you will need if it's a reasonable purity, people can OD on micrograms of the stuff. I agree that test strips are a good idea just to make sure you have what you think you have.

IV use is really the best way to go and is really not difficult, if you are interested in some resources I can help you out. I would think snorting or anal use would be your next best option.

Benzos would be overkill in my opinion but wouldn't hurt just to add another layer of certainty to lethality. Antiemetics are probably not necessary but you can definitely vomit from an opioid overdose even with IV use, so again, wouldn't hurt. Generally the sound of vomiting in a hotel room is not enough to bring in the EMTs, think of all the drunken hotel parties that go on. But who wants to spend their last moments throwing up if you can help it?

The scare stories about EMTs overdosing on fentanyl just from touching a grain of it are pretty much an urban myth, though anesthesiologists have experienced the effects from spilling liquid from a vial on their hands. However, the scare stories have been spread enough that people do believe it and might appreciate a warning. Keep in mind though that if you leave signs it's that much quicker they would Narcan you in case of a rescue.

Good luck, and like i said, feel free to PM with any questions. May you find the peace you seek.

 

[Elfy]

Lady abandon has said everything I would say.. I can't stress enough to test the fentanyl though. Lots of fake fentanyl going around. I guess you could try and snort a very small amount or rub some of it on your gums, If you do not have a test strip or time to get one. I hope you find peace.

 

[Marmesan]

So fentanyl absolutely can be as peaceful as it comes and would be my #1 preferred method if I had a reliable source right now. (Feel free to PM if you want to help a sister out.) I have a long history of opioid use and I can assure you from experience that opioid overdose feels like drifting off into dreams if gradual, and just going out like a light if not, but it's painless and there's no feeling of suffocation. If you have any awareness at all, you just feel like you don't NEED to breathe anymore.

500 to 1000 mg is WAY more than you will need if it's a reasonable purity, people can OD on micrograms of the stuff. I agree that test strips are a good idea just to make sure you have what you think you have.

IV use is really the best way to go and is really not difficult, if you are interested in some resources I can help you out. I would think snorting or anal use would be your next best option.

Benzos would be overkill in my opinion but wouldn't hurt just to add another layer of certainty to lethality. Antiemetics are probably not necessary but you can definitely vomit from an opioid overdose even with IV use, so again, wouldn't hurt. Generally the sound of vomiting in a hotel room is not enough to bring in the EMTs, think of all the drunken hotel parties that go on. But who wants to spend their last moments throwing up if you can help it?

The scare stories about EMTs overdosing on fentanyl just from touching a grain of it are pretty much an urban myth, though anesthesiologists have experienced the effects from spilling liquid from a vial on their hands. However, the scare stories have been spread enough that people do believe it and might appreciate a warning. Keep in mind though that if you leave signs it's that much quicker they would Narcan you in case of a rescue.

Good luck, and like i said, feel free to PM with any questions. May you find the peace you seek.

Hi, I am interested in resources for IV use, could you provide?
Thanks so much!

 

[Fenty(nal)]

Ive heard of EMTs dying from fent residue on a patient, and ODing from just touching it. Its probably gonna function like Heroin, you'll nod out and be blissful as you fall asleep and you stop breathing. Leave notes to whoever finds you, fent is dangerous. Jealous you have that on hand though.

Fent is way harder to acquire and trust to be pure. Its crazy illegal and dangerous too. N comes from A and we know what it is. Its fairly safe unless you drink it.

You know that's not true right? You need to consume fentanyl to get its effects. You CANNOT OD from having it on your skin. I really wish that myth would die.

 

[Jolene40]

Is there no way at all you can try access N? We know its more reliable anecdotally. I can't imagine how awful it may be if this doesn't work for you.

 

[Alec]

Is there no way at all you can try access N? We know its more reliable anecdotally. I can't imagine how awful it may be if this doesn't work for you.

I'm new to this sorry, what is N? And how does it work? What's the feeling of ODing on it?

 

[Fenrirsend]

Hi everyone,

I am ready to go. I printed my suicide notes. And I am ready to book a hotel room to spend my last days. But, I still have some concerns.

Currently have more than enough Fentanyl powder to kill me (approximately 500mg to 1000mg).

My way of going would be by snorting as much Fentanyl as I can get in (never snorted anything before, so kinda anxious about it).

IV is not an option, cause I'd probably mess that up. I am not sure if mixing it into water and drinking it like that would be a good idea (I'd prefer this though over everything else cause it's so easy)


-----

Guys, I am really afraid of Fentanyl not giving me a peaceful death like drinking N could.

My concerns with snorting Fentanyl are:

• Will I pass out before having feelings of suffocation?
• Do I need benzodiazepines to fall asleep beforehand?
• Do I need to take antiemetics even when snorting?
• Do I need to make warning signs around my body for the hotel workers cause Fentanyl is so deadly?

I really want to know if attempting with Fentanyl would achieve a peaceful passing like N's A could give me.

And if so, why aren't more people considering Fentanyl instead of N? What's the reason Fentanyl is barely discussed?

Sorry for spamming this forum about Fentanyl, I read the PPeH but unfortunately I am still left with these questions eating my brain.

Thank you in advance.

Honestly I'd take fent over n any day.

It's my dream way to go but just so hard to get. Could pm about how u got yours maybe?

 

[uiop]

I've been searching for reliable fentanyl for quite some time, but no success. It would be my preferred method to go as well. But I guess I have my N so it doesn't matter anymore. I just wish I could stock up a few years ago

 

[Meretlein]

Fentanyl is not as a good as nembutal because nembutal is very cardiotoxic. A nembutal overdose knocks you out, stops your breathing, and stops your heart. There is no antidote for nembutal and simply intubating a person will not be enough to save them.

 

[LadyAbandon]

Hi, I am interested in resources for IV use, could you provide?
Thanks so much!

This should get you started. Let me know if you have specific questions though!

https://harmreduction.org/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/getting-off-right.pdf

 

[pole]

I've been searching for reliable fentanyl for quite some time, but no success. It would be my preferred method to go as well. But I guess I have my N so it doesn't matter anymore. I just wish I could stock up a few years ago

Do you mind telling us where you get your N from? Ive been trying to figure out where to get N and im stuck :(

 

[JadedGray]

Do you mind telling us where you get your N from? Ive been trying to figure out where to get N and im stuck :(

A's email is on pg. 281 of the PPeH. Just contact him using Protonmail.
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/the-peaceful-pill-ehandbook-march-24-2019-revision.14416/

 

[Umbra]

• Do I need to make warning signs around my body for the hotel workers cause Fentanyl is so deadly?

You referring to the myth that you can die from simply touching fentanyl? Yeah, that's a myth.

 

[TheFinalCountdown]

Fentanyl would be my chosen method if I had a way of accessing it.

 

[lost_soul83]

Hi everyone,

I am ready to go. I printed my suicide notes. And I am ready to book a hotel room to spend my last days. But, I still have some concerns.

Currently have more than enough Fentanyl powder to kill me (approximately 500mg to 1000mg).

My way of going would be by snorting as much Fentanyl as I can get in (never snorted anything before, so kinda anxious about it).

IV is not an option, cause I'd probably mess that up. I am not sure if mixing it into water and drinking it like that would be a good idea (I'd prefer this though over everything else cause it's so easy)


-----

Guys, I am really afraid of Fentanyl not giving me a peaceful death like drinking N could.

My concerns with snorting Fentanyl are:

• Will I pass out before having feelings of suffocation?
• Do I need benzodiazepines to fall asleep beforehand?
• Do I need to take antiemetics even when snorting?
• Do I need to make warning signs around my body for the hotel workers cause Fentanyl is so deadly?

I really want to know if attempting with Fentanyl would achieve a peaceful passing like N's A could give me.

And if so, why aren't more people considering Fentanyl instead of N? What's the reason Fentanyl is barely discussed?

Sorry for spamming this forum about Fentanyl, I read the PPeH but unfortunately I am still left with these questions eating my brain.

Thank you in advance.

Fentanyl will simply make you nod out and you'll stop breathing. No pain, no nothing. You won't even know what's happening and before you know it, you'll be gone. Trust me, I've watched someone OD on fentanyl before and it went exactly that way. And if you have no opioid tolerance, you shouldn't need any other drugs with the fentanyl to do the job.

 

[WaterUnder]

Can someone post a link for a reliable Fentanyl test kit? (I live near one of the big drug capitals of the US where it's supposed to be easy to obtain. (But is it legit?)

 

[lost_soul83]

If anyone has a reliable source for fentanyl, please PM me, I'm really desperate. Thanks.

 

[Lobo64]

its also one of my favorit method fentanyl or better carfentanyl is sometimes used as anesthesic for big animals like elephant... But sooo difficult to find in Europe.

 

[LadyAbandon]

Can someone post a link for a reliable Fentanyl test kit? (I live near one of the big drug capitals of the US where it's supposed to be easy to obtain. (But is it legit?)

You can order fentanyl test strips from DanceSafe online: https://dancesafe.org/product/fentanyl-test-strips-pack-of-10/
There are also lots of suppliers on Amazon that have them even cheaper. If you are near a US big city, see if there's a local needle exchange. They often give out fent test strips for free.

A's email is on pg. 281 of the PPeH. Just contact him using Protonmail.
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/the-peaceful-pill-ehandbook-march-24-2019-revision.14416/

Can anyone explain how to download/access the PPeH through the anonfile mirror? I am not as tech-savvy as I would like and haven't been able to figure it out.

 

[WaterUnder]

@LadyAbandon Thanks so much!

 

[JadedGray]

You can order fentanyl test strips from DanceSafe online: https://dancesafe.org/product/fentanyl-test-strips-pack-of-10/
There are also lots of suppliers on Amazon that have them even cheaper. If you are near a US big city, see if there's a local needle exchange. They often give out fent test strips for free.

Can anyone explain how to download/access the PPeH through the anonfile mirror? I am not as tech-savvy as I would like and haven't been able to figure it out.

The link in the first post of that thread should work. It's a PDF file so you'll need to download a program like Adobe Acrobat Reader.