So it pisses you off that people are happy because you aren't? I'm sorry you have to go through that but I'd rather people be happy than be miserable
Don't always believe how their life appears to be. My life to the outside is 'perfect' but inside I'm in absolute turmoil.
Yes. I hate seeing people smile when I'm so miserable. It's not really that uncommon. I've been a good person my whole life and I see these morons just loving life. It makes me sick to my stomach. Of course I would rather be happy. I'd like for everyone to be happy and not have to suffer but look at the site we are on. Planning our deaths. There's nothing to be happy about that.
I completely understand what you're talking about. I am 34 but I don't feel 34. I still feel like that 20 year old girl who got sick and never got a chance to mentally grow. It's like I've been mentally and emotionally stunted. And yes I guess you're right when you say don't look at someone and think their lives are peaches and cream. I mean if you look at me I look like a ordinary girl or woman. I have a nerve condition so you're not going to see it. I'll smile and speak well and even laugh. But I'm dying on the inside. Physically and mentally. I hate putting on a front though and decided a long time ago I just couldn't do it anymore. But still I'm sickened by their smiles and their wonderful outlooks on the worst things in the world. I don't call it being pessimistic I call it living in reality.
Is this because you are gay? I have no prejudices against the LGBT community one if my cousins is transgender. I think love is love and if you're lucky enough to find it than you should grab onto it whether it's with a man or woman. I've never been in love and I'll never be in love.
