B
beboleaf
Member
- Nov 15, 2023
- 8
For months now, I have felt nothing but low and depressed. At a certain point it looks up for a little while, but then I come back to the same point.
I can usually tell how depressed I am or how bad it is, right now it's rock bottom and the lowest I've ever felt. I'm insecure over every detail of myself whether it's my intelligence, my looks, how I talk to people, or how I'll look getting older.
My boyfriend talks of having a family with me later on, but I can't imagine myself making it to 19.
What's the point of anything? I don't seek out help anymore and everyday I imagine how my plan of ctb would play out. I still put the facade of being okay on so my folks don't worry but I don't know how much longer I can continue :(
I can usually tell how depressed I am or how bad it is, right now it's rock bottom and the lowest I've ever felt. I'm insecure over every detail of myself whether it's my intelligence, my looks, how I talk to people, or how I'll look getting older.
My boyfriend talks of having a family with me later on, but I can't imagine myself making it to 19.
What's the point of anything? I don't seek out help anymore and everyday I imagine how my plan of ctb would play out. I still put the facade of being okay on so my folks don't worry but I don't know how much longer I can continue :(