Story Feeling so guilty

[bluebus]

I am supposed to leave for school on Tuesday. I've been dreaming about this for a long time- moving to my dream state, pursuing the major I've always wanted to, and starting my life. Unfortunately I will never get to do those things. I received a bad medical diagnosis back in June, and while it won't kill me, it will make my life very difficult and not worth living. I just found out that all my friends are having a huge surprise going away party for me tonight. None of them know about my diagnosis, or my plans to ctb next week. I have to pretend that everything is all right and that I am so excited for this next part of my journey. I hate that I will have to lie to all of them. I hate that they are going to this much trouble for me. I don't deserve it. I really feel terrible and I'm dreading having to go. On the bright side at least I'll be able to see all/ most of the people I love for one last time. My stomach hurts and I really don't want to go. Hopefully I can keep it together tonight. Wish me luck

 

[vampira]

Sorry as I am unantiquated with all of the details of your situation, but I wish you the best in this time of need. I do hope things turn out better for you, truly.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be so tiring being in that situation, it's dreadful how people have to suffer, existence really is too cruel. But anyway I wish you the best of luck.