Feeling oddly calm about it all

[offbalance]

I plan to CTB as soon as I acquire benzos (I have the SN and antiemetics)
setting up the dark web stuff is kind of harder than it sounds but I'll do it. I also have an appointment tomorrow with my psychiatrist so hopefully he will just prescribe them to me.
But I feel really at peace with it all, SI isn't acting up at all, there's only a sliver of fear left. Guess that indicates I'm really ready.

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

SI doesn't kick in until you're ready to pull the trigger or start swallowing etc tbh.

 

[offbalance]

SI doesn't kick in until you're ready to pull the trigger or start swallowing etc tbh.

Yeah I realize that but I've thought this through for years. I'm hoping the benzos will quell that

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

Yeah I realize that but I've thought this through for years. I'm hoping the benzos will quell that

Yes, good luck to you. I hope you are able to do what you want

 

[offbalance]

Yes, good luck to you. I hope you are able to do what you want

Thank you

 

[FuneralCry]

I imagine it must be a relief to feel at peace, I wish you the best in your plans and I hope that you find the freedom you search for.