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Feeling guilty and afraid

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Willow

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Sep 16, 2018
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I feel so guilty. I called off from work to CTB today and I feel bad about leaving my coworkers to deal with things. I feel guilty already about leaving my husband behind when I do it.
I feel certain this is what I want to do, but also lonely and afraid
I am trying to plan out the steps-
Go to a coffee shop and wait for the gun store to open
Buy the gun
Go to a hotel room
Get it done
I don't think I'm going to leave any notes
Not sure exactly why I'm posting this except it makes me feel calmer and less alone
Thank you to all who are reading
 
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Willow

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Sep 16, 2018
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Well I accomplished the first step. I'm in the parking lot at the gun store now, about to go in and buy the gun. I feel very alone and afraid
 
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