dollofyarn
Member
- Dec 15, 2025
- 18
Hello people.
After I was fired from my job I've been spiraling into a very dark pit again and my mental health has been at a very low point since. Sometimes I get random bursts of energy though and when that happens i have this huge guilty feeling that I struggle with. I know that I have positive qualities, that I could do something special with if I just had the energy and braveness to actually take the step. I have a very good eye for creative things and putting things, like furniture and clothes together to make sure they work and look good. I'm very creative and enjoy making art when I'm not depressed. I have a big love for all animals and for them my kindness knows no bounds. I feel like I could definitely do something with at least one of these things. It's just that I'm so permanently stuck in freeze mode that I don't even dare to actually step out of it. I hate that about me. I don't know if it's coming from fear (definitely could be the case) or maybe the feeling of being perceived that I don't like? But nowadays if you want achieve things, especially in creative fields, you have to put yourself out there. It is confusing and hard to navigate these feelings and i don't know if I'll ever have enough strength to make the actual step.
After I was fired from my job I've been spiraling into a very dark pit again and my mental health has been at a very low point since. Sometimes I get random bursts of energy though and when that happens i have this huge guilty feeling that I struggle with. I know that I have positive qualities, that I could do something special with if I just had the energy and braveness to actually take the step. I have a very good eye for creative things and putting things, like furniture and clothes together to make sure they work and look good. I'm very creative and enjoy making art when I'm not depressed. I have a big love for all animals and for them my kindness knows no bounds. I feel like I could definitely do something with at least one of these things. It's just that I'm so permanently stuck in freeze mode that I don't even dare to actually step out of it. I hate that about me. I don't know if it's coming from fear (definitely could be the case) or maybe the feeling of being perceived that I don't like? But nowadays if you want achieve things, especially in creative fields, you have to put yourself out there. It is confusing and hard to navigate these feelings and i don't know if I'll ever have enough strength to make the actual step.
