Discussion Feeling Guilt Ridden

[Brokenwings]

I cant help it,I know there are ppl here who say they care etc who depend on me I dont want to hurt them.I dontvwantvto hurt anyone I don want to hurt myself
But as l lay here in bed tossing and turning trying to just get some sleep.Trying to find some position,like one single position that doesnt cause actuall physical pain,I cant help wish I could just close my eyes and drift away forever.And just be done. Tired of crying softly to not disturb anyone ,Tired of lashing out cause it hurts too much to deal.Just tired of going on like wishing I could be in stasis until this latest flare up is over and I can stop feeling guilty of the hurt and financial burden death would cause. Feeling guilt ridden for so many night wishing to go in my sleep and finally rest.

 

[Brink]

Thank you for sharing and I can see you're new here, welcome! You seem like such a selfless, thoughtful person thinking of others and putting them first - I am so sorry you're in pain it seems so unfair. What is the nature of your pain if you don't mind?

 

[Brokenwings]

Thank you for sharing and I can see you're new here, welcome! You seem like such a selfless, thoughtful person thinking of others and putting them first - I am so sorry you're in pain it seems so unfair. What is the nature of your pain if you don't mind?

Thankyou ,I'm trying my best.Long story short I'm dealing with both mental and physical issues and quarantine is making it even harder to get treatment.

 

[LMLN]

I'm trying my best as well. I'm sorry for your pain, I'm in the same boat.

 

[Brink]

Thankyou ,I'm trying my best.Long story short I'm dealing with both mental and physical issues and quarantine is making it even harder to get treatment.

You're not a burden at all, and I'm sure your family would agree you're trying your best and fighting for them – the illnesses are a burden to you. Having the option to free yourself is important and your right, however, I wish you the strength to carry on and a speedy path to the treatment you deserve for a better life. X

 

[Donk]

im so sorry you are going thru so much pain. guilt is the only thing stopping me from ctb. i wish my wife and family didnt care bout me so i dont have to worry bout the consequences of my death

 

[RedDEE]

I really feel for you, dude. Physical pain can be so cruel. Can you use pain medicine?

 

[Brokenwings]

I really feel for you, dude. Physical pain can be so cruel. Can you use pain medicine?

It's harder to get pain treatment I get some meds but also epidural injections for pain which can become crippling without them

 

[toomuchtimetodie]

It's so sad that most of us, so e worse than others, like yourself have to feel guilt when deciding to exit this sick world. As if we don't have enough to deal with already.

The amount of sociopaths waltzing joyfully around this planet not knowing how guilt feels even after destroying many people's life. Even Torturing and raping people who've done nothing to them or anyone.
Why should we feel guilty...

 

[a.n.kirillov]

»It is about as sensible to seek the reasons for distress inside the 'self' as it would be to see feeling cold as a matter of personal responsibility.« — David Smail