Feeling fairly confident

[maybeimalreadydead]

I've been practicing and playing around in partial. I've been struggling to get it just right. I have been trying new ligatures, ligature placements and positions, body and knot positions, reading and studying so much.... and finally I got it, like really got it and had to hurry to stop and release.. because while I'm ready, I'd like to spend one last Christmas. The weird thing is it felt really good. Like, my thought was, I can see why people would use autoerotic asphyxiation. It felt euphoric. I'm not certain on my day as I truly personally seem to do better on impulse. But I feel really good knowing that my tools are slowly coming together and I feel I'm figuring it out. However I do still want to find a backup plan, I'm back and forth between charcoal and SN. Anyway, just thought I'd share. Practice sometimes makes perfect, really.