Venting Feeling apathetic towards everything lately

[Ilovemycats]

Lately I don't have any motivation to do anything in my life, everything is starting to become a chore and frankly I'm starting to care less about everything too.

I just feel so empty and emotionally unavailable it's starting to get tiring, maybe the sudden change comes from the fact that I realized that nobody will be able to help me and that I am hypocritical for seeking it while also saying that I don't want help. I do have people that want me to get better and would try helping me but there is always something that keeps me from reaching out for them. So I kinda gave up on that, which probably caused the state I am in right now.

I really do wish to be able to do things and to be finally productive but it's difficult when you don't see the point anymore and just don't do anything but laying in bed.. I hate this state, makes me feel even more worthless and gives me urges to hurt myself even more..

Does anyone else here also feel so apathetic? If so, how do you deal with it? (*T^T)

 

[Untoten_]

I hate feeling nothing. Genuinely, but it's my fault, in September last year I fried all my feeling with as much psychoactive medication as I could. I genuinely haven't felt much since then. It comes in waves now. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't.

It gets even worse, on the 19th of this month the LOML walked away from me, you'd expect me to feel that right? Yea about 3 days after, then nothing. What sucks is my inability to feel, I'm trying to become a better person and if that fails, well I can always try again.

 

[MaxStirner]

There's a quote I enjoy from one of my favorite franchises: "Apathy is death." Funny enough, I don't mind the concept of being dead. A lot more people are pathetic than you realize, but their lack of care is disguised with functionality and the mental prisons of duty to various institutions they don't, deep down, care about in the slightest. They only uphold them since it gives them a manufactured sense of purpose in a world with numerous questions, and the few answers we have are harsh indictments of humanity's sense of importance. Like what Carl Sagan says in 'The Pale Blue Dot.' Our planet, and all that happens on it, is but a small, small blip in a vast, expanding universe. Few people have the wherewithal to accept such an idea.

You may take comfort in the fact that you are coming to realizations about yourself that are, in actuality, extremely hard to compartmentalize. Few people want to admit how little meaning they have found in the world while simultaneously not rushing to fill the void that is left.