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suicidesheep31
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- Jun 27, 2020
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I know I won't kill myself by doing that. I just want to hurt myself with an light OD.
I don't know if someone is feeling the same but when I do an OD with medication it is just like a new birth, a new start. I reset all my emotions to 0.
I just want the pain going away.
How to deal with emotions when it hurts?
I should not complain, I am in DBT and just got kick out because I don't want to stop problems behaviors.
I have this luck to be in DBT, But, I still don't find any purpose in life.
I feel I am not belonging in this world.
I am a single woman who not deserve to be loved. I don't love myself, so no one can love me. I don't know what does it mean to love someone.
So, tonight, I will drink and just take the medication I have. And as i am weak and don't have the courage to kill myself, I will call again the emergency. And I will have the feeling to born again after waking up.
Tired to have to do this to decrease my emotions.
Sorry for people who don't have the luck to be in treatment. I don't deserve this treatment anyway because I am convince that death is the best for me.
Sorry for venting. It helps me.
Cheers
I don't know if someone is feeling the same but when I do an OD with medication it is just like a new birth, a new start. I reset all my emotions to 0.
I just want the pain going away.
How to deal with emotions when it hurts?
I should not complain, I am in DBT and just got kick out because I don't want to stop problems behaviors.
I have this luck to be in DBT, But, I still don't find any purpose in life.
I feel I am not belonging in this world.
I am a single woman who not deserve to be loved. I don't love myself, so no one can love me. I don't know what does it mean to love someone.
So, tonight, I will drink and just take the medication I have. And as i am weak and don't have the courage to kill myself, I will call again the emergency. And I will have the feeling to born again after waking up.
Tired to have to do this to decrease my emotions.
Sorry for people who don't have the luck to be in treatment. I don't deserve this treatment anyway because I am convince that death is the best for me.
Sorry for venting. It helps me.
Cheers