Hey, been lurking for a little bit and thought it might finally be time to post.
My wife wants separation which will pretty much lead to a divorce which I cant handle. A little back story.
My wife and i have been married for 3 years and in a relationship for 12 years. Shes the only thing i know in my life. When i close my eyes i dont see a future without her(might be corny). But when youve known someone for so long and have gotten so used to calling their arms home its so hard to separate. Im sure shes set on divorce and Ive tried everything for another chance but she doesnt want to give me the chance. I have been wanting to CTB but my son is the only thing keeping me. With that being said intry to see a future with him but i cant because i think about how my wife will one day start dating and eventually marry someone else and i cant take seeing that. What worries me is my son calling someone else dad.
Im honestly at peace with CTB, the only way i can fall asleep sometimes is with a chance of thinking im not going to wake up. I have tried it once before when i was younger but it didnt work(i believe i was 15). But now im kind of looking forward to it. The worst part of my day is going home and having trouble sleeping because i feel lonely. I cant sleep without my family who im so used to sleeping next to. It really just sucks.
If youve read this far thank you. It feels good to tell strangers. I tell people how I feel i tell my wife that i dont see a future without her but she doesnt seem to care. Shes done with me. I literally feel empty inside.
Could us someone to talk to as no one really understands me
My wife wants separation which will pretty much lead to a divorce which I cant handle. A little back story.
My wife and i have been married for 3 years and in a relationship for 12 years. Shes the only thing i know in my life. When i close my eyes i dont see a future without her(might be corny). But when youve known someone for so long and have gotten so used to calling their arms home its so hard to separate. Im sure shes set on divorce and Ive tried everything for another chance but she doesnt want to give me the chance. I have been wanting to CTB but my son is the only thing keeping me. With that being said intry to see a future with him but i cant because i think about how my wife will one day start dating and eventually marry someone else and i cant take seeing that. What worries me is my son calling someone else dad.
Im honestly at peace with CTB, the only way i can fall asleep sometimes is with a chance of thinking im not going to wake up. I have tried it once before when i was younger but it didnt work(i believe i was 15). But now im kind of looking forward to it. The worst part of my day is going home and having trouble sleeping because i feel lonely. I cant sleep without my family who im so used to sleeping next to. It really just sucks.
If youve read this far thank you. It feels good to tell strangers. I tell people how I feel i tell my wife that i dont see a future without her but she doesnt seem to care. Shes done with me. I literally feel empty inside.
Could us someone to talk to as no one really understands me
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