Jon Arbuckle
Aspiring Corpse
- Jul 23, 2024
- 88
Starting to have doubts about ever being able to CTB. I wanted to go via firearm since it seems like any pain will be brief and instantaneous but I'm starting to have second thoughts. even if I shoot the right place what if I stay conscious for a few seconds of agony? same with jumping but that's even worse.
even something more "peaceful" like SN, it works by starving your body of oxygen, i'm scared I'd feel breathless and like I'm drowning.
I'm just scared right now. somehow the idea of CTB has soothed me lately? like the idea that it'll be over soon. now I feel like I don't know what to do anymore.
even something more "peaceful" like SN, it works by starving your body of oxygen, i'm scared I'd feel breathless and like I'm drowning.
I'm just scared right now. somehow the idea of CTB has soothed me lately? like the idea that it'll be over soon. now I feel like I don't know what to do anymore.