Discussion Fear of the pain is understandable, however we all have to die one day.

[VoidDesirer22]

I like to remind myself that death is inevitable, and when I die I won't be able to control how much pain I'll experience.

Basically I have noticed that by default most people seem to assume that they will die in a warm bed if they do not ctb early (or maybe that's just me battling with that fantasy). But, by making a ctb plan with something like SN, even if the peacefulness rating is a 7/10, that is extremely likely to be higher than dying in a car crash or some other accident, where death may not be instant and I could bleed out slowly.

I have been thinking about this a lot lately, as I come to terms with my ctb plan sometime next year. 2022 will be the year. I have lived out this phase of my life and will be deciding not to enter the next phase.

 

[ClownMe]

This is how I try to reason my future suicide, the reality is that only a small percentage of people get to die painlessly.

 

[FuneralCry]

I would rather have control over my death, and die at a time of my own choosing, than be taken away randomly like in an accident. The way you feel is understandable. I would put up with pain if it meant I got to die at the end of it. Dying a painful death is more preferable than decades filled with pain which I will experience if I stay alive. I hope you find peace.