I do not fear death at all, death is true peace and an end to all suffering. Nothing can hurt me when I am dead. There is no point to fearing death as it is inevitable for us all. Death makes life seem so pointless and temporary. The thing that I fear is life in general as there is no limit as to how bad things can get and the ctb method failing. The fear of failure is the main thing holding me back from ctb, all that I want is to peacefully pass away.