F’d up again

[voc_89]

8 mins from home. 8 fking minutes from home. And I got in a car accident. Sigh. I was at fault. The person agreed to a pay off and I fix myself. Maybe will cost 6 times what I paid them. Wtf is wrong with my fking life. Every single fking time I am about to go a next lvl ( income, job, relationship, etc.) some fuckery happens. Wtf. Haven't I been through enough. Haven't u got enough of your fking pounds of flesh from me? Wtf else can i do. wtf else u want from me? U always say to strive and persevere. The he bad times will be behind u. Well when tf is that going to happen. I am so fking tired. wtf did I do to deserve this? Pls someone tell me. What I did to deserve this

 

[scordatura]

You didn't do anything to deserve it.

Life doesn't give a shit who you are, what you've already been through, whether you deserve it, whether you desperately need a break, whether you are good or bad. Sometimes bad things happen to the same people over and over again that it doesn't even seem possible. It's brutal. How can all this happen to one person? How can life be so cruel to give you something that makes you feel like things are getting better and progressing, just for it to rip it right from under you.

You don't deserve it, and you never deserved it. Existence happens to be oblivious to all living things and experience. I'm really sorry life has screwed you over once again.