Fbi came to visit me today. I feel so alone in this.

[CatLove56]

I don't even know where to go as reddit is my main outlet but I remembered this website and all the advice I have received. I still can't believe it even happened. I know their goal was to eliminate these thoughts but man it sped up the countdown it feels like. I still feel distressed and this happened 9 hours ago.

Long story short, they thought I was the next el paso shooter but the best part was when I was asked if I ever molested a child. Because of a post asking for help on these thoughts. I can't get over how humiliating this was and the accusatory tone asking if I done something to a child or planned. No. I finally stuttered after being in shock. This whole visit just confirmed what I already knew. Life is bullshit and those kept in the dark are better off. I'm "to depressed" yeah because I worry about everything. You should to.

After realizing they were wasting their time they left saying we shouldn't see each other again just be careful what you say on the internet. I'm more depressed than suicidal but man do I wish for death. Won't be by my own hand because that's to hard.

My father and brother who was here but left the house to let them "interview" me just think it was about the possible shooter. They keep telling me to "get over it" but I can't. I was asked if I molested CHILDREN. They scanned my phone and I know I shouldn't give a shit over them seeing my porn but this was the worst day of my life. I'm supposed to go to work tomorrow lmao. PLEASE learn from me and watch what you say even joking.

 

[nothingleft]

I'm so sorry. <3

 

[sanction]

They tracked your IP address from reddit and came straight to your house? Damn

 

[CatLove56]

They tracked your IP address from reddit and came straight to your house? Damn

I pissed off someone so bad they decided to screenshot some things I said and send it to the FBI. Brownosers. Unbelievable.

 

[TAW122]

I'm sorry to hear about this ordeal that you went through. I would NEVER post anything that could be grounds for suspicion (mass violence, threats of harm to self/others, or anything that is illegal) on the Internet, especially through Reddit. Reddit is also a place of censorship where they silence the dissidents and politically incorrect thoughts. Also, they have no qualms about getting the authorities involved in wrongthink or such non-criminal transgressions. It's quite appalling how thinking the wrong thoughts or saying the wrong things (albeit legal and constitutional) is still grounds for investigations and unwanted checks by authorities.

 

[FighterOfTheNightman]

I feel like you saved me from being careless like other times I knew I wanted to die.. I forgot about this law about the mass shooter shit..

I keep getting banned from FB lately.. I should keep my head low till I can just die peacefully as possible.

Wait I should clarify. I got banned from FB for a day for calling racists white trash..

Then 3 days for doing it again out of spite.. then 7 days lol for being like the guy from the Breakfast Club..

Recent events have made me wanna kick the bucket and I don't want stopped so this gave me the idea I should be quiet until I make my decisions and preparations..

"There will be no one to stop us this time!"

-Darth Vader

 

[Soul]

I'm sorry you were put through something like that. I don't know how to help you but here are some (((hugs))).

 

[CatLove56]

I'm sorry to hear about this ordeal that you went through. I would NEVER post anything that could be grounds for suspicion (mass violence, threats of harm to self/others, or anything that is illegal) on the Internet, especially through Reddit. Reddit is also a place of censorship where they silence the dissidents and politically incorrect thoughts. Also, they have no qualms about getting the authorities involved in wrongthink or such non-criminal transgressions. It's quite appalling how thinking the wrong thoughts or saying the wrong things (albeit legal and constitutional) is still grounds for investigations and unwanted checks by authorities.

I should have stood up for myself and told them to fuck off and I have rights but I just wanted it over with. My sleeping is fucked right now I don't feel safe in my own house. My own stupid fault and I now understand our rights are slowly being taken away.

I feel like you saved me from being careless like other times I knew I wanted to die.. I forgot about this law about the mass shooter shit..

I keep getting banned from FB lately.. I should keep my head low till I can just die peacefully as possible.

Wait I should clarify. I got banned from FB for a day for calling racists white trash..

Then 3 days for doing it again out of spite.. then 7 days lol for being like the guy from the Breakfast Club..

Recent events have made me wanna kick the bucket and I don't want stopped so this gave me the idea I should be quiet until I make my decisions and preparations..

"There will be no one to stop us this time!"

-Darth Vader

No one wants to hear it my man believe me lol. They don't want it bottled up but at the same time they do. They don't care what we have to say we are "depressed" we are "ill"

 

[FighterOfTheNightman]

Actually I feel like this might be a good time to check out, because people who are bipolar AF like myself might become a target for the government in the name of "helping people"..

Like, rather than blame guns, or culture, or society, or hardships, they will blame some group, like the mentally ill. I could see us getting rounded up..

 

[CatLove56]

Actually I feel like this might be a good time to check out, because people who are bipolar AF like myself might become a target for the government in the name of "helping people"..

Like, rather than blame guns, or culture, or society, or hardships, they will blame some group, like the mentally ill. I could see us getting rounded up..

Exactly they want to prevent victims or looking for one how about you look in front of you?? I feel broke right now and I can only tell strangers. I can talk to a therapist but what will they do? Nothing. Watch yourself is all I can say.

 

[FighterOfTheNightman]

That sucks man this life can be a load of bullshit. I am figuring out how to leave in an efficient hopefully relatively painless way.. and I wish you luck sir.

Have hope that there is something better waiting after our eyes close.. I don't think it will be worse..