Venting Fantasies of dying/passing out

[SamInAnEppisode]

I have been thinking about it for some time. I am not sure if I am ready to kms but the thought of going into the bathroom, looking my door, taking out a blade and cutting my arm untill everything is a puddle of blood. I wanna bleed out and just feel the life slipping from me

I could never tell this to anyone couse they would call me weird