Ultimate Subhuman
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- Jun 14, 2026
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This is js kinda venting post. I'm gna start at the beginning - after an argument with my Mom nd Older Brother over bs I had went to area where my Dad had kept his Rifle. I locked the door behind me, opened the case, & they barged in - at that point I had it in my mouth & pulled the trigger. But in my negilence I had forgotten to rack the gun & there wasen't a bullet in the chamber so my brother ran & grabbed it from me; I didnt fight for it back. Instead I js left and went to bed. The morning after the attempt - March 2nd, I had just woke up at 11; Mom came in my room to talk to me for ~15m
She had said Verbatim;
- "I don't understand why you would do something like this.."
- "Look at you, your a strong boy, your smart, xyz.."
^ This dosen't really matter
But what really caught me off guard was this-
- "Your life could've been way worse, imagine being 5'6.."
- "Like..your 6'1, Imagine you were 5'6 and had the same issues.."
Like wtf? I didn't expect her to be so callous & ignorant at that moment since she had cried all the night before [ I could hear it from my room ], but since then I've come to realize my whole family is like this. There's been a couple arguments my Mom & Older Brother had with me now about random bs, and each time they bring up either the fact I'm suicidal or the attempt. Always too demean me, calling me either retarded, a pussy, or a threat to other people. My Brother stated verbatim that he believes I could be a school shooter, murderer, or rapist in the future ( Since I'm a Virgin Ig but Idc for Women ). He said killing yourself is steps beyond killing or harming other people. Mind you, the reason I've come to think like was for people never treating like a human, including my Mother. And now their degrading me further than that telling me I'm lesser than murderers & rapists.
No one else in my family speaks about it, they haven't done really much of anything but let me be, I never hoped they would I js didnt expect it.
She had said Verbatim;
- "I don't understand why you would do something like this.."
- "Look at you, your a strong boy, your smart, xyz.."
^ This dosen't really matter
But what really caught me off guard was this-
- "Your life could've been way worse, imagine being 5'6.."
- "Like..your 6'1, Imagine you were 5'6 and had the same issues.."
Like wtf? I didn't expect her to be so callous & ignorant at that moment since she had cried all the night before [ I could hear it from my room ], but since then I've come to realize my whole family is like this. There's been a couple arguments my Mom & Older Brother had with me now about random bs, and each time they bring up either the fact I'm suicidal or the attempt. Always too demean me, calling me either retarded, a pussy, or a threat to other people. My Brother stated verbatim that he believes I could be a school shooter, murderer, or rapist in the future ( Since I'm a Virgin Ig but Idc for Women ). He said killing yourself is steps beyond killing or harming other people. Mind you, the reason I've come to think like was for people never treating like a human, including my Mother. And now their degrading me further than that telling me I'm lesser than murderers & rapists.
No one else in my family speaks about it, they haven't done really much of anything but let me be, I never hoped they would I js didnt expect it.
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