Family keeps getting in the way. can anyone relate?

[evey8112]

So all i want to do is CTB. For me i have to be in a state of only thinking about that like full depressive mindset. If i start thinking about my family i get emotional and then my mind plays these games with me and tells me i should not do it like i kinda feel bad. My step mom ask me how i was doing and telling me my Dad was trying to call me. Me and my dad are really close but i know if i talk to him everything might come out and i do not want to destroy my future plan to CTB. Can anyone else relate?

 

[toasterbath]

Yes I can relate to saying alive for the sake of family members. Since my mom passed, my dad is all alone so I feel really guilty for not taking caring of him in his old age.

 

[Hirokami]

My mom keeps me alive, honestly. Ever since my dad passed away, I'm the closest person to her. She already lost a husband prematurely, so it would be unfair for her to lose her only child as well.

 

[ClownMe]

I couldn't care less about my family, except for my dog. I've decided to stay alive for him and not ctb until he passes away.